Hi Alias n welcome,
I'm still a Christian...after walking away from the Org...my desire/need to acknowledge God did not change.
I posted a topic called "Are your Ex' still Christian"...that dealt with my situation and thoughts...as well as many others here as well.
I very much believe that Christianity can be proven intellectually by known facts.
A book I recommend that deals with many of the hard questions to faith is...The Case for Faith by Lee Stribel
I go to a large non-denominational church here in LA...where I am able to do what I am compelled to do in my spirit.
Good to have ya here n lookin' forward to your contributions!
Pax(Peace),
joel