OK, my first guest has flaked on me. This is a little disappointing because I was looking forward to a discussion about homosexuality and the Bible that people could really sink their teeth into.
Other the other hand, I am relieved.
I don’t have to do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I’m fucking tired, and I have a diminishing case of PTSD, and it will never go away unless I let go of all this shit, and get out of battle mode. I am going to end up like Rick Fearon if I am not careful, lol.
I was born and raised in the organization of JW’s. My entire life was consumed with all things WTBTS. Now that I am out, what the hell am I doing? Am I living my life? Have I put it all behind me? NO! I am still completely absorbed by all things WTBTS. I think about it. I talk about it. I have to get information out to others, blah blah blah. What the hell is the matter with me?
There are many xJW’s who are doing a fine job, and I really won’t be missed, and I really won’t make that much of a difference anyway. Let the others be consumed with exposing the WTBTS. Let them eat, sleep, and shit all things WTBTS. I think I would just like to take the rest of my wasted life and do absolutely nothing even remotely related to the WTBTS.
I’m outtie.
I might make a vid on occasion, but it will not be any kind of a priority.
Summer is fast approaching, for Chrissake.
I am relatively a young still, single gay man, whose children are grown and on their own, out of the organization, and I don’t need to worry about them anymore when it comes to the org. I am an empty nester. I have never really taken any time for me, and I am going to take my spring and summer and fucking enjoy it. I am not going to waste a single minute thinking or talking or doing a damn thing having anything to do with the org of JW’s or the WTBTS.
I love you all.
I wish you all the best.
Go gettem, Mad Sweeny!