Posts by BackRoomBilly

OH BOY -we have gone round and round. Our arguements would always end in them trying to disprove other religions when that wasnt the arguement to begin with. My brother would always say either you believe the bible is the word of God or you dont. Then he would follow up with who is the FDS if its not the WTS? Because I couldnt tell him who the FDS really is he would walk away with a sense of victory and power. We havent had a discussion about his "truth" in over two years.

My Mother and older brother have disowned me 10 years ago and that was the best thing that could have possibly happened to me. My younger brother talks to me all the time and it gets stranger than fiction. He attends meeting gives parts the whole nine yards. He is constantly reading the propaganda and he seems to like it, Only he is more "worldly" than most people I know. He drinks a lot, he's always in bars, and I'm pretty sure he's been snortin' coke with his 30 something witness buddies.

I just sit back and wonder if his behavior is because he is losing faith. Just when I think he's breaking out of their grasp... There he goes back out in field service and my hands are tied. Its just sad Chris.

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Just saw a New World Translation on my co-worker's desk

by Brocephus in

he is kind of new but a nice guy... i knew there was something wrong with him.

just went over to ask him something and he had the cd-rom version of the nwt on his desk.

it was like count dracula seeing the cross.

BackRoomBilly

I have a question, What is the WTS take on illegal aliens? I work with two brothers (siblings), who both go to a spanish Cong. They put the awake mags on their desks like they read them or something. The owner of the company who is my friend has told me that they cant go to San Diego to bid on work because they don't have papers to get past the Escondito check point. I have been curious about this for a while. Is it a don't ask, don't tell concience matter?

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Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?

by BackRoomBilly in

jw
friends

hello to my fellow refugees,.

my name is ryan and im 38 years old.

i was raised in the darkness (wts) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid.

BackRoomBilly

Cameo-d, Thank you for the advise. I will do it just like you said. WOW THIS SUCKS

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Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?

by BackRoomBilly in

jw
friends

hello to my fellow refugees,.

my name is ryan and im 38 years old.

i was raised in the darkness (wts) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid.

BackRoomBilly

I am glad I found out the whole thing was a sham but it really is a catch 22. I know what they are doing and how they're doing it for the most part. but I dont know how to rescue my little brother. It seems like the whole thing is booby-trapped. I know if I try to discuss it with him he'll retreat into the "Its the devil trying to snare you" mind set. I feel like the only thing I can do is wait and hope he figures it out for himself. Any advise?

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Convention Memories...

by darkl1ght3r in

brothers and sisters.

please take your seats.

the 2010 district convention of jehovahs witnesses is about to begin.

BackRoomBilly

Brother I felt your pain!!!

One time, I must have been eleven years old, I found a bunch of food tickets on the ground. I bought a truck load of chocolate puddings and smuggled them back to our seats. When my mom caught me eating them she quickly back handed me in the face. Well, she didn't notice the blood starting to trickle down. I let it run down my shirt for a good 10 minutes all over my new shirt and clip-on. When she saw it we left the convention. That truly was a blessing and the fact that my two brothers had to stay there with Grandma was icing on the cake. - Ryan

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Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?

by BackRoomBilly in

jw
friends

hello to my fellow refugees,.

my name is ryan and im 38 years old.

i was raised in the darkness (wts) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid.

BackRoomBilly

Thank all of you for your warm welcome. Most of all thank you for your understanding. As you probably know, explaining some of these things to a person that hasn't been through it is next to impossible. You guys have been through it and you know what I'm talking about. That is the greatest gift of all. Not to be alone with these demons anymore. - Ryan

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Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?

by BackRoomBilly in

jw
friends

hello to my fellow refugees,.

my name is ryan and im 38 years old.

i was raised in the darkness (wts) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid.

BackRoomBilly

Thank you guys for the kind words and welcome. My wife has finally convinced me to get into some counseling. To answer your question truthfully, I am fair but hopefull. I have been supressing for a long time and have felt so alone. In the past I have tried to explain to a friend or my wife about how they treated me and I've just felt like they cant begin to understand. It was when I started reading on here and a few othe sites that I discovered I am not alone anymore. Less than an hour ago I had tears running down both cheeks but if felt so good. I look forward to being friends with all of you.

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Why does Jehovah want to kill Daddy?

by BackRoomBilly in

jw
friends

hello to my fellow refugees,.

my name is ryan and im 38 years old.

i was raised in the darkness (wts) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid.

BackRoomBilly

Hello to my fellow refugees,

My name is Ryan and Im 38 years old. I was raised in the darkness (WTS) and have never-ever-ever taken a single sip of their cool-aid. My grandmother, rest her soul, found the WTS in the 50's and was a regular pioneer for most of her life. My mother is a jw and my older brother and one younger brother are also Joe-hobos. As a child I lived with my divorced mother and grand parents. All the Men in my family were not interested in the doomsday crap. My Mother moved us 600 miles away from my Father is Los Angeles when I was five. At that tender age my Grandma found it necessary to tell me that I shouldnt talk to my Dad when he called on the phone. She said that he didn't love Jehovah and that he was going to be killed by our loving God Jehovah any day now (1977). When I chose to talk to my Dad anyway, they served up plenty of guilt. This is what layed the foundation for my miserable life. In my five year old mind, I hated these people who were going to kill my Dad and I chose to fight them every step of the way.

I was public enemy number one from 5 to 17. I got beat for not raising my hand and saying "Jehovah" into the microphone like a good little boy. I was the one who wouldn't join the ministry school. I stone faced the elders when taken to the back room with my Mom and Grandma. I hated sitting for the flag salute and not making little frosty the snowman and I let them all know it. As a teenager I was excluded from all the pop corn parties and softball games but the worldly girls sure thought I was cool.

I watched my Grandpa shoot himself. My Grandma killed herself three years later with pills and wine. I have not spoken to my Mom and older brother in 10 years. I hated the WTS all because of what they told me when I was five. When I came on here and found out that it was all a lie and that everything that they did to me in the name of Jehovah was bullshit... I lost my flipping mind.