You ARE my buddy Nikolas. We have had our heated debates, but I have never NOT considered you a friend and an extremely intelligent person. In fact I think there is a lot I can learn from you. I have just been an arrogant pig to you, and for that I say, "I'm sorry".
brotherdan
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
But my babies need their mama. She is such a good mama besides being a JW. I can't rip them away from her. I, though, am a fucking loser. I will not take them away from her.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
But as soon as my wife gets out of the hospital (and yes she's has been in since saturday), i will have my judicial meeting with the elders where I get to hear that fucking "apostate" word again. I don't know why that word hurts me so much. But it does. I used to call them "loser apostates". So not only have I gone through my wifes close death, but now my mama will never talk to me again. Nor will my daddy. They will be loyal to "Jehovan" to the day of their death. I've officially lost everything special to me. My wife said she will sue for sole custoday without visitation. I'm sure the courts won't uphold that. But it still hurts.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
I just called her at the hospital to try and apologize and she hung up on me. I never knew this sort of pain existed.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
Thanks guys. I am SOOOOO sorry for how judgemental I have been to all of you over the last months. What a bitch I've been. I hope I haven't hurt any of you in a real way.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
I will never be able to get myself together.
You guys don't realize how in love I am with my wife. She is my everything. And this religion shat all over it. She saved me from myself. And I almost killed her. That's what I do. I hurt. I help people self destruct.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
Once it all happens, your soul is seared into nothingness and you have nothing to say to "God". I think I reached that point probably sometime last year. Reality is just a wake-up call and you realize that you're on your own.
Last week I would've argued this. But no longer. I think you are absolutely correct.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
How did you manage to go to work?
I'm not really working. Just crying in my office.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
And please don't call me brotherdan. I'm not a brother. I'm Daniel. And I am a real person. I hurt people. And I've hurt the person that I love most in my life.
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I've been outed...
by brotherdan inso this weekend my wife had a major grand mal seizure for the first time in her life.
she was rushed to the er.
a few hours later while i was at her side she had another major one.. it was the scariest moment in my life.
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brotherdan
My "master" has left me all alone in this entire thing. I am so angry at him. The hurt that he lets me have is too much. I think 1Cor 10:13 is the biggest joke in the world. I've passed the point of what I can bear. I can't bear anymore. And still he lets it go. What love is that? I would never let my kids go through so much hurt, pain, and tears.
But maybe he isn't my master. Maybe I've claimed that he is, but he never really chose me. I think that's the most likely answer.