Welcome Phoebe!
How courageous of you to come and share with us. Going to counseling is the best thing you can do for yourself. Don't look back, except what not to repeat, but look forward to your new evolving freedom. Give yourself permission to take your time adjusting to who you are now and will be as you shed such mind control and deal with your post traumatic stress. You are amazing just to speak up.
Enjoy the rest of your life. There are many here with loads of experience having been a JW and now ex-JW.
Hugs, Joy