Posts by JediMaster

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How about this?

by thraxer68 in

so, this might be more for those of us who were strong in the jw faith and possibly anyone who was strong in any other faith lie lds for example.

so we were all told that we need to believe, and be strong in that belief, and love what we believe, even to the point of death.

so you work on that.

Make that three. T68, I think I can relate to your experience as well. For me it started with some of the more "cultish" aspects of it, like everyone destroyed at A, disfellowhipping, all hail the GB, etc. But yeah, you're right, I tried praying, studying, going more out in service, thinking that in time all would be cleared up. But it hasn't, and now I'm not sure if it will ever be.

something would always tell me, make me realize it was a delusion, that I was flat out lying to myself, but I would go so hard against that

Sounds like the first stage of grief and loss: Denial. It's not easy, but I guess we all come to realize sooner or later that not all the pieces in the puzzle fit right.

Jedi Master

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First "Apostate" Thing I've Done

by scotinsw in

just been on facebook and saw a friend of a "friend" had a truth box which is anonymous.

i sent a little message to them!.

probably will get ignored and they will think that the evil apostates are out to get them but still, it made me feel like i'm getting over the whole witless thing.. so.....what was the first "apostate" thing you ever did?.

JediMaster

Started lurking then posting on this site ......

Ditto Jedi Master

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JW encounter

by donny in

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this is an update to this thread.

http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/195184/1/do-jws-now-avoid-live-persons-they-meet-in-the-field.

this morning i was on my usual stroll from 10:00 am to 11:00 am and i again saw the jw's out placing flyers on doors advertising the upcoming district convention.

JediMaster

Nice one!!! Way to go!! Can you do it again but have it taped this time???....

Jedi Master

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this lurker's first post.

by dances with smurfs in

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:|.

...........im gonna go have an anxiety attack now.

lol.

JediMaster

Cool name and funny first post!! W E L C O M E!!!! After that anxiety attack how bout you come back and teach us a few moves???

Jedi Master

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Finally got CoC!!.....Not really what I had expected.

by JediMaster in

ok, so i finally picked up coc from my local library last night.

and started reading it like crazy.

i think i read about 70 pages which brought me close to the end of the second chapter: "governing body".

JediMaster

Jeff. As someone who still (somewhat) believes JW to have the "truth", I'm at a little bit of a crossroads in my life. For many years I was a very strong, spiritually-minded, pillar of the congregations kinda witness. During my many years of faithful service I seriously messed up more than a couple times, but was convinced that those failures didn't mean I wasn't being sincere or honesthearted or trying my best. And I've always tried to see other witnesses and people in general in the same way. Always try to find the good in people no matter what. Even the GB. Like I said before, I've always had a pretty good idea of how things operate and how oppresive & authoritative things have gotten sometimes, especially in the last few years. However this woudn't be the first time that those in charge of Jehovah's people start lording it over God's servants. That's what I mean by "being careful of how to excercise my own opinions and set of beliefs." While I'd like to remain part of God's people on earth, I still want to be accountable to God PERSONALLY, not through the GB or any other person or entity on Earth.

So, while I'm not trying to make excuses for the GB, I'm trying to be as balanced as I can.

Jedi Master.

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WORLD CUP! US vs Algeria

by BurnTheShips in

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we've been knocking on the door!

0-0 42 minutes in.

anyone else watching?.

JediMaster

Nicely done US!!! Once again, we come around!!

Jedi Master

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Do JW's now avoid "live" persons they meet in the field?

by donny in

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lately, i have been encountering several jw's who are out placing flyers inviting folks to the upcoming district conventions.

i am usually out for my 10:00 - 11:00 am lunch stroll and when i walk the streets of nearby residential areas, i have been seeing several jw's out in service (i counted 12 yesterday - 8 women and 4 men).

in 4 instances over the past 9 days, i have placed myself in a situation (such as sitting on a park bench that is along the sidewalk they are on or stopping my stroll before they get to me) and each time they just smile and say hello and continue on their path.

JediMaster

Holy Spirit lets them know you know way too much and they won't be able to stand against you. May be you should aproach them??

Jedi Master

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WORLD CUP! US vs Algeria

by BurnTheShips in

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friends

we've been knocking on the door!

0-0 42 minutes in.

anyone else watching?.

JediMaster

I can't watch but I'm following the "live" comments on yahoo. Seems like a good match, but nothing yet. If England wins, we're done for. How the heck did Slovenia get so ahead?

Jedi Master

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Finally got CoC!!.....Not really what I had expected.

by JediMaster in

ok, so i finally picked up coc from my local library last night.

and started reading it like crazy.

i think i read about 70 pages which brought me close to the end of the second chapter: "governing body".

JediMaster

sd-7: I hate you. You know way too much and always say the right thing to get me thinking. As soon as you mentioned Sahdow Hunter, I had a wow moment. Darn apostates..... Both you and leaving WT are right about the Society fearing the FACTS in the book, seeing that most of it is direct quotes from WT publications. Right when they got rid of all info before 1970/80 in in the WT-CDROM I knew someting was up. A little too late, as myself and hundreds of other witnesses had already found all the contradictions and failed prophesies. Thanks for the rest of you as well for your comments and input, it all helps.

I did notice the following chapter was much harder to follow, it wasn't just a story anymore. I had to slow down more than once and go back and reread and reasses some ideas. Keeps getting better and better.

Jedi Master

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i'm a murderer she says.

by maz in

this morning at 8:30, my mother decides to come into my room.

i was lying on my bed reading a book.. mum: i need to tell you something.

mum: please don't commit immoral sin.. me: umm... what are you talking about?

JediMaster

Welcome to the board. For whatever's worth, my mother can also say the weirdest, most guilt-inducing things sometimes. Working with my therapist on how to control my emotions when this happens. But overall, also try to avoid her as much as I can.

Jedi Master