Gotta agree with the sentiment here, especially finallyfree and gutted. Low self-esteem, feeling like an outcast, social anxiety, feelings of depression of having lost family and friends. Feel like I have a negative world view and it is so deeply rooted that even though I am fully aware of it, don't know where to start getting rid of it.
There are days where I wonder if its just me, my genetic makeup. But realize genetics might play a part but being raised a JW really molded me to develop these deeply rooted negative traits.
But I still feel better off - free and thankful for it every day. I look at my JW parents in their early 60s and they are absolutely miserable people with severe persecution complexes. By the time I'm 60 I'll be much better off.