Hi cookiemaster, I'm sorry that you are feeling angry and hurt. DITTO what other posters wrote about living your life well. However you could spend a couple of hours three or four times a year to write to politicians like I wrote about in Revise Tax Code to Protect Children from Sexual Abuse, feel like you are doing something constructive to educate politicians about how the WTBTS victimizes JWs, and still live an awesome life!
On the other hand if you do want to rise within the organization, make plans that would allow you to accumulate documentation about how the WTBTS converts donated material into donations, flips real estate for a profit by unduly influencing congregations to sell their KH's or AH's and build new ones, deceives older JWs to lend the WTBTS money and then converts it into a donation, or transfers money from the WTBTS of NY to another WTBTS corporation to make it appear that the WTBTS of NY is a charity. Complete an IRS form 13909 and submit it to the IRS as I wrote about in the thread How to Complain to the IRS about Non-Profits .
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert