Let me put it this way; I walked around post Kingdom Hall with a smell of Watchtower Theology hanging in my brain that I couldn't get rid of.
I was out for good but all the mechanism of thought was tainted.
So, another twenty years passed with me seeing things virtually the same I way I had done when I was a JW inside
Terry's words ring a bell with me ... just realized it, thank you!
With the failure of the 1975 'lies' and marriage problems I more or less left and thought all the crying and angst was just MY unhappiness. Didn't 'get' that my brain was still stuck, like a needle on an old cracked record.... going around in the same groove over & over & over.
Finally made the leap with the last generation new lite! Reseached my brains out and here I am!
clarity