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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

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  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  I just heard of a mother recently finding out her son who lives at home is to be disfellowshipped.

  She said to her hubby... "i think that *** should move out, he cant live here anymore if he is disfellowshipped".... :( How wrong is that!!

  I could NEVER EVER EVER turn my back on my girls, NO matter what, and that is Unconditional love always...

  I never thought that the people i have known all my life could only show this conditional love, i really thought they were friends for life no matter what!!

  I am greatful, however to have a friend who lives close who also has her doubts but is scared i think to break free because of repercussions of her mother, and she is great with me , that is an unconditional friend to me. And my other friend who lives an hour away, she is also awitness and has been my best friend for 15 years, she has said she could never shun me, and views me like a sister, no matter what.. that is unconditional love.. All the others are just robots i believe and maybe one day Karma will find them and do the same to them... it happend to me, i once 'shunned' my sister, and feel terrible for it. Just goes to prove the grip this 'organization' has on peoples minds... WRONG!
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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  bez

  Thanks wasblind.

  I truely believe life can only get better now .. despite being told everything will just go wrong for me now i am in 'satans world'.

  I do feel happier already, and do feel much closer to my creator, but it still is obviously only human to feel a little bitter and disappointed by once really good friends (or so i thought anyway). However i know time is a healer, and i really do look forward to the day that i can just fully ignore the feelings of guilt and unworthy feeling that i have right now... i continue to pray, and am sure that has to be a step in the right direction
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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  bez

  Mad sweeney, this is the same woman who told me her daughter would no longer be able to come play with my daughter again as she would be a bad associate as no longer a witness. (despite letting her kid play with the non jw down the road).

  So i guess maybe it is abit presumtious to think that that is what she meant by "your kid can keep the clothes.... (to avoid me passing your house)", but maybe you would think the same thing.

  She already told me i cannot have the 'best of both worlds', ie, have friends in the 'truth' and be in the 'world'.

  So i guess i just thought she was following through with her statement....

  ..Hence my feeling i have some sort of contagious disease... forgive me if im wrong tho!
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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  bez

  Aww thank you Pat

  I keep praying too
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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  bez

  Thanks everyone and lol st ann, i really did think it was sanity..but they make you feel like shit!

  I know time is a healer but like you said thenoblelodge, its still a bitter shock when faced with it... :(

  I cant believe these people actually believe the are 'imitating' christ... HOW WRONG!!!!
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  need to get over it but cant :(

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!)..

  i told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing... anyway i just had my reply, hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them.

  hope your all ok...x. so i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence... i knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(.

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  bez

  I text my little girls friends mum today as her daughter left some clothes (funnily enough, they were army pants and a t shirt, what ever happened to not supporting the army by not wearing calmoflage print etc!!!).. I told her i would put them in a bag and told her she could call in for them whenever she was passing..

  Anyway i just had my reply, Hi, just keep them, *** will be out of them by next year anyway, so *** may as well just have them. hope your all ok...x

  So i take it thats her in basic words sayin... keep them cus i dont want to see you again and your apostate influence..

  I knew people would take this approach to our decision to not continue going to the meetings but i just am really struggling to deal with it without feeling like i have a disease that they do not want to catch :(
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  Family is gossiping about me, and then I get a letter

  by nextdoorgirl in

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  so, here's your typical "i'm concerned about you" letter.

  and my responses.

  wanna take a look?.

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  bez

  Hey their, i have sent you a PM ... My advice , she wont listen to just keep it brief and leave her too it... or dont reply at all... that is what she wants and your just fueling it for her gossip!

  AS hard as it is to keep it brief or not even reply... you will realise in the next few days how 'satisfying' it feels... but if you do feel the need to write something.. as i say.. keep it brief, she wont know what to do!!!
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  All the accusations- and no substance....how SHOCKING!

  by theMadJW in

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  are there pretenders in our brotherhood- as in all religion- that do what is evil?.

  yes.. have we made stupid guesses about some of the prophecies, as all churches do?.

  yes.. does our "organization" make mistakes- as, you guessed it, all do?.

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  I did a better job than all of YOU- and still ended up seeing the truth!

  OK well done you!

  Keep up your good work, one day you may learn something from this site!
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  All the accusations- and no substance....how SHOCKING!

  by theMadJW in

  1. jw
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  are there pretenders in our brotherhood- as in all religion- that do what is evil?.

  yes.. have we made stupid guesses about some of the prophecies, as all churches do?.

  yes.. does our "organization" make mistakes- as, you guessed it, all do?.

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  u really are a 'madjw' arent you!!!! exactly the reason i stay away, but thanks for confirming what i thought, its full of fruitcakes!

  One question tho, were you brought up in the 'truth'? are u studying? are you a newbie to it? just curious, cus despite everything you said, i still cant understand why your here, and if i was to 'report' you to your body of elders, i think they would highly dissapprove...what would you do then??? hmmm
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  cant believe how much i have learn in a week!

  by bez in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  this site has opened my eyes.. i am suprised as a one time 'do gooder witness' that so many on this site are still 'active' jw's!

  and all the time i was a witness i really did not think that anyone would dare even look at such a site!!!!!.

  i am also suprised at the number of people in the same situation as me, and the number of people who actually feel they have something to live for now they have left the org!.

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  Thats my next plan crisis of concience, i have been wanting to read it for years but never dared!

  It was my little girls 8th birthday today and the first time I have EVER celebrated it, or a birthday...i cannot understand why my mother would never have done that for me to see my face light up and have a special day for her daughter.... :(

  Anyway, I can change all that now for my family :-)