Posts by mamalove

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I thought it wasnt bothering me. But it is.

by mamalove in

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14 years ago

do you ever feel that way about your jw past?

maybe i need more time?

i know that it is a lie.

14 years ago

mamalove 14 years ago

Thanks for all of your replies. I appreciated each one of them and enjoyed reading how you cope when you get sad. Oddly enough I had a friend who lives in a different state contact me and try to figure out my status. I am sure she will be shunning now too...

I do think that I need to talk to a counselor and help me sort this out.

Jamiebowers, I think that my ex just wants some kind of retribution, and me having no label of DF or DA makes him feel like I deserve some kind of punishment, or finality. I don't think I have been staked out to try and establish any sexcapades, and I don't think my ex wants to get remarried. But he could, I don't know. Not many pretty sisters that I think he would be attracted to.....afterall, he contributed greatly to letting a good wifey go.... lol. Kidding a little here.

Satinka, I would love to read your blog, and will PM you.

Thanks!

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I thought it wasnt bothering me. But it is.

by mamalove in

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friends

14 years ago

do you ever feel that way about your jw past?

maybe i need more time?

i know that it is a lie.

14 years ago

mamalove 14 years ago

ThinkAboutIt, are you teasing me with that comment about the outfit? LOL. I think you are because I told someone on here to go get a new outfit and she will feel better??? Mama has lots of cute clothes....

Too funny. Yeah, I think reflection ebbs and flows and today it is flowing and I am more bothered. Oh well, gonna go watch a movie with a friend and go get some wings and a beer later. That will help.

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Hubby told Elders I thought JWs were brainwashed...

by cognac in

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14 years ago

guess cause i'm considered inactive?

well, he moved to a new hall and went to 1 meeting with him.

didn't even stay the whole time.

14 years ago

mamalove 14 years ago

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can relate. I know all about trying to stay..toddlers...working...all of that. Now I know lots about divorce and starting over. PM me if you want to talk. I think he was way out of line to speak for you. Did you speak to him about this?

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Don't Ignore Us!

by peacefulpete in

14 years ago

when i first left the jw's some years ago, one of the most incredible observations i made was just how irrelevant the wt and jw's were to the larger public.

when the conversation turned to my history (as it often did, because i desperately wanted to discuss it) the most comon reaction was of complete unawareness of the jw's, much less their doctrine, or complete surprise that i regarded them as destructive.

to the later, the jw's were understood to be just another church like any other, a little weird perhaps but just one of the many churches in town.

14 years ago

mamalove 14 years ago

I think unless you knew JW's or had a relationship with one, you really do not know the nitty gritty. Once people find out, I think it makes an impression.

I do talk about it, things bother me. I could not watch a movie last night because it reminded me of the brainwashing of children.

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I thought it wasnt bothering me. But it is.

by mamalove in

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friends

14 years ago

do you ever feel that way about your jw past?

maybe i need more time?

i know that it is a lie.

14 years ago

mamalove 14 years ago

Do you ever feel that way about your JW past? Maybe I need more time? I know that it is a lie. I think what bothers me are the ties that seem to be attached. For example, I had a friend who was DF'd after many, many years get reinstated. It is obvious it is for family and she is enjoying the social circle now. But she is definitely going through my Christmas pics on FB and making comments. She sent me a note saying she heard I was DF, and I am not. She is hanging around people from my old KH now that she is reinstated. Why should any of that bother me? It shouldn't. But it does, so I blocked certain things from her. Maybe I just think she could start trouble, because so many people I thought were harmless have caused trouble.

I thought I was fine not having my mother and sister in my life. I still feel tortured. Think about the horrendous things my mother has said to me. The silence from my sister bothers me. I feel so angry at them both. They are cowards. I wish they would say it to my face that they are shunning me, rather than not saying anything or just making untrue personal attacks.

Then I found out through my divorce papers that my ex has tried several times to get me to establish my status as a JW, and is rather unhappy of my inactive, undefined label, rather than a big fat DA or DF. I wonder when is he going to stop?

So at what point does life go on? When do you stop caring about the past?

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What are your favorite songs of 2010?

by Leolaia in

15 years ago

this thread is very simple.

post youtube vids of your favorite songs released in 2010 (whether as a track on an album, or a single, or as a video, debuted on the radio or tv, or what not).

it could be of any genre, whatever you like, the only rule is that it has to be a recently released song.

14 years ago

mamalove 15 years ago

OMG that little boy playing Im Yours is hilarious! What is his deal?

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little miss sad again

by Newborn in

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15 years ago

i think i just broke up with my bf .

we've been together 6 months.

lately i've felt less & less emotions and engagement from him.

14 years ago

mamalove 15 years ago

Aww, that really stinks. I am so sorry. You deserve alot more. You deserve to be totally happy, and have your needs met and you adore him and he you. Don't settle! Don't settle! Being alone is a good thing because you don't have to worry about fighting with someone else.

You will meet someone nice when the time is right. Hang in there. Life turns and twists and you never know what can happen. Do you have friends you can go out with? Buy yourself a new outfit and go out on the town. Lift your spirits so you can make the landing of the break up somewhat easier. PM me if you want to talk.

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What emotions have you been coping with?

by mochamint22 in

15 years ago

i wanted to dedicate this posts to just talking about the emotional scars we all have had or maybe still have.

was there a gap of time between you thinking you didn't want to continue and actually, consciously, deciding to no longer continue as on of jws?

it's amazing to me the strong hold this religion puts on you.

15 years ago

mamalove 15 years ago

I was raised a JW from birth. At 18 was forced to shun my father who was DFd. It took me 10 more years to wake up. 3 years it took me to snap out completely and not feel like I was doing something wrong. Now I know its a lie. Emotions, yeah I have plenty. I feel somewhat tortured that my own dear sister has nothing to do with me. That bothers me the most. My mom is a big meanie and I am somewhat relieved I don't have to hear her shouting at me anymore. I am a grown woman, divorced now, and two gorgeous kids. I have a happy life, my own house, good job, and a great non JW family who helped me. But I still feel the need to go see a therapist which I think I am going to do because I am really bothered about my sister. I need some kind of internal resolution on that. I tell lots of people my "story" and am not ashamed at all. I could not help the way I was born into it. Thought I was handed a golden ticket....my ass. At least I am young enough and my kids are young enough where I can hopefully save them. For anyone who struggles, let it out! It's good and healing. ((HUGS))

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Moral Dilemma

by Mattieu in

15 years ago

excuse me so called holy spirit directed governing body; what do you do when you discover that a long term hospital liaison committee elder who gives talks at all1 day assemblies, 2 day assemblies & district assemblies and is quite prominent n the victorian/nsw circuit, is addicted to pornography, particularly under age and bestiality porno?

and oh, if you have print outs of his internet log ins and internet history fully detailing his log ins from his work computer???

and im not talking breach of privacy, im talking his breach of work usage of computers, of which im in charge of the it.

14 years ago

mamalove 15 years ago

So does this elder know that you know he has this issue? If so, I am shocked he has not been squirming..

If he is that awful of a person, and your goal is to humble him, then perhaps do some anonymous mailings, etc. What would his wife say? Would she hush hush it? What about some of the R&F that he has hurt? If he has power to hurt others, and you have power to take his power away, then I would make an effort to do that.

I am not shocked that your IT department does not really care. That is commonplace. Many people think that you get fired over that stuff, but it happens so much. Our CIO found loads of porn on our shared drive! Someone loaded tons of it and took up so much storage he had to go tell him to get it off. He didnt care, he just wanted the space on the server.

Back to the issue though, I think it is for the betterment of the "innocent" Jdubs for this jerk to be humbled a bit. That's all. Get creative.

What is Oz? What is the overall Aussie JW attitude? Same as everywhere else? More strict? I always pictured it more low key. Sorry for all of the questions.

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Do You Folks Wanna Hear My Story?

by Farkel in

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friends

15 years ago

i've already written "my story".

i've been "out" for 35 years.

but that is not a story that contains the little stuff.

14 years ago

mamalove 15 years ago

Yes please, I love stories and I am sure I am not alone!

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