Misery, I have been thinkng of you....good to see you back my friend. I am anxious to read your crossroads.
Your story is very familiar. I think a lot of us were naughty when we were kids. If it makes you feel better, I was too. I had a fake ID and would go clubbing with other JW girls and boys. It was funny over the years seeing us all get married, some of us including myself pioneered, some are elders and MS. Some of the guys I had kissed, etc. YOU WERE NORMAL! The gang stuff, well, you were young and immature and looking for acceptance. So what, you were young and don't do that anymore.
No one needs to know. You stopped what you felt was wrong and it is over. I hope you do not feel guilty about stuff from the past.
Did you become an ubber brother as a sort of penance? To make up for your youthful indiscretions? Do you think that God views things that way? Take the knowledge you have now about the organization and balance it all out. I think I am jumping to conclusions now, so I will wait for the rest.