It destroyed me every time. I'm a father to real children so every JC felt like the worst thing one can ever do about helping someone in crisis.
I always felt like the rules would not allow you to disagree. But for some reason I found distributing was that people gave up like they wanted to be df, like they came in knowing it was over and they weren't worthy. It was odd to me at first, but I slowly realized that it's all based in designed fear by HQ. It's control not protection.