It does take a while to move on from the cult and those feelings. Your very lucky to have a spouse who's not in the cult. What has helped me was to find something to be passionate about. I have immersed myself in learning about science and the financial industry, something I felt was forbidden before. Doesn't mean I will persue those fields, I just love to gain the knowledge.
Time doesn't necessarily heal all wounds but it sure helps the scabs get smaller lol
izzy