No, I never felt loved by the JWs. I bent over backwards to 'widen out' and make freinds. Take brother 'Window Washer' out to lunch after the sunday meeting, then never hear from him again exept for a distracted hello in passing at the next meeting. A lot of things like that happened to me and my wife. Many times we would make plans to invite brother Janitor over to our house for dinner and he would never be available. Or this one- Trying to be part of a conversation in a small group of witnesses and have someone cut me off in the middle of what I'm trying to say and continue on like I never even said anything. That always made me feel good...
Shit, at least some of you guys got love bombed when you first joined up. I was pretty much a witness from 5 years old on so I didn't even get that. No one coming up to me and acting happy for me when I got reinstated one time made me feel like crap. For me the worst thing of all, and one of the reasons I left the witnesses was that I didn't feel loved by god any more. It seemed like I had this awesome relationship with god. I'd go on long walks and pray and gush my heart out to god and for a long time I felt like he loved me but then it stopped. I lost the feeling that he cared about me because I was going through some extreme emotional abuse from my jw parents (had two breakdowns because of them) and so I'd go outside at night, look up at the stars down on my knees and say tearful prayers begging him to help me. It only took a few times of doing that before I realized he wasn't going to be there for me. Looking back I feel like such an idiot for thinking he would help me.
Chris-