Thank you for the advice, Larc! Yes, I had read now the Psalm 86! That is comfort of Jehovah! Yes, i want to do myself and want not to be influenced to my life! I have a own life always und the elder knows it that I am not easy to be influenced. If they say to me and I examine often same the beroers (Acts 17:11). Unfortunately the time of now is not my time of the studying with the JW! If this time before I was never the JW! The lies of church about JW was the turning point to came in the organization of JW (The lies of catholic church: No operation, no alkohol, no children, never relaxion and high taxes about 60 precent ..... wrong information about JW). I believed not more the catholic ones and the apostates and was a wall for them. About two year ago I give myself the opportunity to listen a few what the apostates after the first time with internet. But I gave it up because a few information are not entirely right. Now the information are fully and I have checked very much. It need more time to check all details!