the human brain is a non-stop chattering machine.
it is constantly evaluating, making decisions and judgments.
there is not a human being alive that isn't an abject hypocrite nearly every day.
ROTFL! Farkel, that WAS good.
And don't forget about how good it felt when you worked the same side of the street with another pair – how much of a relief it was when they got further ahead to finish more houses while you got to talking for a long time at someone's door.
sunday mornings are now my most favorite day of the week.. it used to be that i'd get up early and prepare for service or study my wt.
yep, i was one who had her wt highlighted in several colors and had scriptures jotted in the margins.
if i didn't have it underlined, i felt guilty.
wasasister,
Wow, I feel like I've known you all my life (lol, maybe 'cause our experiences play out almost exactly the same in the lives of millions!) I enjoyed reading your right-on summary of how it used to be. Life is so grand now, isn't it?
You wouldn't happen to be in the Midwest, would you? If you're close enough, I'd be more than delighted to come over and share my music with a new friend over some java.
Kristen
"when you're older, you'll understand.".
"when you're older, you'll learn to see things my way.".
"when you're older, you'll be cynical and bitter.
Rochelle,
I think you are much further ahead than the average 25-year-old.
You see, I refuse to "understand it when I'm older." I refuse to let life make me bitter, because I don't want to
be that way. You can't always choose what happens in life, but what you do with it when it happens is completely
up to you. Otherwise, you'll always be a captive of your past.
This is a healthy way of looking at things, IMO, and something that I continually strive to think/feel for myself. We all come from different lots in life and have different biological and physical elements that color our world a certain way. Many have to work harder inside to get to this level, others seem to get there much easier.
I celebrate your new found freedom with you as you leave "your cage" and fly on your own. This has to be a truly exciting time of your life.
Kristen
sunday mornings are now my most favorite day of the week.. it used to be that i'd get up early and prepare for service or study my wt.
yep, i was one who had her wt highlighted in several colors and had scriptures jotted in the margins.
if i didn't have it underlined, i felt guilty.
Sunday mornings are now my most favorite day of the week.
It used to be that I'd get up early and prepare for service or study my WT. Yep, I was one who had her WT highlighted in several colors AND had scriptures jotted in the margins. If I didn't have it underlined, I felt guilty. Dress was more formal on Sundays too (than the bookstudy or TMS). And when you walked into the KH, it felt ... different and more formal than other days.
Service afterward was another experience. Most of the days seemed sunny and beautiful. People would be out in their yards planting flowers with their spouses and enjoying their lives. And I'd approach them with my bookbag and latest magazines in hand offering them happiness. That they already enjoyed. Inside I wished I was out in my yard planting flowers.
Now Sundays are different. I get up when I want and slowly enjoy my morning coffee. I sometimes make a leisurely breakfast and listen to my favorite music. I listen to the birds singing and enjoy the sunshine. No more highlighters and scriptures to jot or magazines to place. No more putting on fronts to avoid the guilt. And plenty of time to be out in my yard planting flowers.
i am a survivor:.
i was born in one of the largest cities in the us, lived there for the first few years of my life, during that time i was molested twice, once atthe age of 3 and again at the age of 4, the second .
time being a group thing.
Casper,
Yes, you ARE a survivor! I enjoyed reading your story.
I am a peace loving person, honest, kind and loving, adore the creation........I despise racism....Totally... hate where people are "Classed"....felt the truth does that too....put's us in classes......worldly, anointed, Pioneers, etc, etc, .....I hate such things
Me too.
Kristen
....uh, uh.... {to the group} can i go to the bathroom?.
ask this and other important questions here: http://www.greatcrowd.com/159ubb/forum1/html/000233.html.
ps.
lol, six. Makes me wonder why we keep reading those boards. It must be an important part of the metamorphisis out. At least now I am outside looking in to learn my lessons.
Kristen
an x-db poster on active JW boards
god i hated it..every living breathing minute of it.
it was pure hell for me, and based on the pace i see the jws all over the world moving, they aint so fond of it neither.
the persecution that the jws feel they get is from irritated householders who know nothing about their religion except that they hit people over the head with it and then judge them because they dont like being hit over the head with it.
Did you/Do you actually LIKE Field Service?
Ha ha, good one.
Top ten reasons why I loved* field service (in no particular order):
1. I loved the 99% rejection rate
2. I loved pairing up with people who wouldn't speak 10 words to me in a social setting
3. I loved pairing up with pregnant sisters dragging their two-year-old by the arm (who wanted to pet the last door's kitty) up the sidewalk, while pleading to go potty
4. I loved trying to unload the latest set of mags before they got "old"
5. I loved the quality time I got to spend with my family
6. I loved writing down not-at-homes and RVs in front of the whole neighborhood in between houses
7. I loved anticipating which house would be Born Again
8. Or Atheist
9. I loved making use of the Conversation Stoppers from the Reasoning Book
10. I loved giving up every Saturday morning of my life to having a "regular" share in the ministry
Actually, each week a dread would come over me on Friday night, anticipating Saturday morning service. It took everything out of me. By time noon rolled around on Saturday, I was elated. I often hoped for rain or for nobody to be home. Sometimes I knocked lightly to avoid talking to anyone. I stopped filling out time slips LONG ago. And eventually I just stopped going. What a RELIEF!
And how refreshing it is to take a normal walk in the neighborhood these days without carrying a bookbag!
*hated
way to go simon--jehovahs-witness.com was given the "cool site" award from netscape open directory!.
congrats to simon!.
--java...counting time at the coffee shop
W o o h o o
You deserve it, man!
i've really enjoyed and continue to enjoy "reflections of hope", the composer is a clinical psychologist.
there are sound clips at the following site:.
http://www.gettingunstuck.com/music/healing_art.htm
Took awhile to download, but it's interesting. Do you have the whole CD?
Thanks for the link!
i'm a bookworm and would love to hear some of your recommendations.. besides the traditional coc, in search of christian freedom, etc.
books that help facilitate one's journey out, please feel free to share the titles you found helpful to your own growth after leaving the organization.. thanks a bunch!
Thanks larc,
I've been to Java's site and enjoyed it very much. He's got an interesting perspective on things and I liked reading about his own experiences. Noticed the book titles too.
I noticed another book thread has been started in main, so I'll keep an eye on it for other recommendations.
Thanks again,
Kristen
