nuffy - It is hard to admit to yourself you were gullible for 50 years!
This is the same in my case.
When I was a PIMO, I still believed in God and all that jazz. I used to listen to sermons online from churches on sermonaudio.com.
When I answered(tm) at the meetings based on the bible reading(tm), I'd used what I heard from those sermons. Some of the Jobots used to tell me that my answers were great. One Elder(tm) shook his head once, when I answered. I laughed up my sleeve because I'd touched a nerve without going against the GB(tm).
I didn't go back after the 2010 CONvention that introduced the hilarious 'overlapping(tm)' generations.