When you were 'advised' to cut off all your prior aquaintences it was so everything in your life could be controlled without you being able to have any outside support.
Everything with Witnesses is conditional. And that condition is based on outward appearances of blind obedience and constant fear. Fear of Satan everywhere, fear of never doing "enough", or fear of that one misstep leading to you in that infamous picture from the old Paradise Lost/Regained book. It's a 24/7 mental Inquisition. Throw off that burdensome yoke of fear men keep spoon feeding you. It is of no benefit to you or anyone else.
Go live your life in the here and now. Go do some truly good stuff for others and also yourself.