I have definetly changed...it took a long time but I was finally able to get "dubdom" out of my head.
When I left the organization...it was simply because I couldnt live the life of being a Jehovah's Witness anymore. I wasn't allowed to be good at anything...couldn't fit in...people always watching me. Finally, I figured that I can stay away and feel that way...why go to the meetings? And who are they to boss me around? *pure rebellion
The only problem is that I still firmly believed in their teachings...so basically...I felt doomed.
It wasnt until some years later...(when I dared to go to a bible study that a friend held)...that I realized JW teachings were all wrong. It took a while but gradually, with the help of my friends and a pastor (thanx Steve), I was able to unlearn all of what I had been taught in my 12 years as a "dub".
Change is good ;)
Lizard