I enjoyed reading this, Professor. This feels to me like a post about letting go (of resentment?)
Posts by nilfun
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8How Do Dead Witnesses Feel?
by professor insome of you may find this a bit strange.
i have a picture of charlie russell in a nice frame that i keep.
in fact, it sits on my desk at work.
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Halloween Costumes
by Jim_TX ini was at coffee yesterday, and friends i was with started talking about halloween, and costumes.. after a bit, i got this 'revelation'!!
i asked them.... "why not dress up as santa claus on halloween?".
well, you'd have thunk i said that satan wuz jesus!
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nilfun
Is is just me or does it look like Milton 'borrowed' the top half of Samuel's outfit for the snapshot?
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ADMIT IT, DIDN'T YOU FEEL SPECIAL being a JW?
by minimus inremember, you had the truth!
everybody else didn't even have a clue!
the worldly people never understood our spiritual paradise.
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nilfun
Thanks, Dismembered
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ADMIT IT, DIDN'T YOU FEEL SPECIAL being a JW?
by minimus inremember, you had the truth!
everybody else didn't even have a clue!
the worldly people never understood our spiritual paradise.
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nilfun
No, being a JW never made me feel special. I remember once preaching at the door of a teen who was same age as I. She asked me that very same question, "Do you feel you are special?" I recall feeling completely baffled at her question. Of course I wasn't special, and I told her so. This response seemed to sadden her, and at the same time that I sensed this in her, I also sensed it (a sadness) in me. I was at her door trying to convince her to come to my KH to experience the love among the brothers, when I knew very well that it wasn't there. I moved around a alot growing up, attending about 13, 14 different KH, and it was all pretty much the same thing at each. Being part of a family headed by a single mom with 5 children and no money, I remember feeling at a very young age that the poor were universally despised, and it didn't matter to the brothers that I was part of their organization. They never found a check with Mom's name on it in the contribution box, and she and her children were treated accordingly (sure she would put in what she could, a few dollars when she could ill afford it, her 'widows mite'). So, as a member of the Untouchables in the JW caste system, no, I must say that I never felt special. It didn't make me feel special to meet really great non-believers and realize that I was not allowed become friends with someone who was going to be destroyed. It didn't make me feel special to listen to the brothers and sisters picking out whose house they were going to take over after the great bloodletting at armaggeddon. It didn't make me feel special to see the misery shunning caused. I felt ashamed and searched for a long time for a way to extricate myself from the situation without losing my famiy's love. Sometimes I think that is the reason I haven't been missed. I wasn't 'show[ing them] the money'!
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I'm new here...
by nilfun ini just wanted to say hello and that i think it's nice to find a place where i can express myself if/when i need/want to, although i feel pretty timid about posting.
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nilfun
I'm starting to feel better already
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To spank or not to spank?
by Nowhere ini had a conversation with an active witness from the usa lately.
and when talking about child upbringing he stated that some children need a spank sometimes.
of course i was upset because of that, and i didn't thought witnesses was that stupid.
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nilfun
I could never bring myself to hit my children, either. I remember feeling humiliated whenever I was hit, no matter what amount of force was behind the blow, no matter if a hand, belt, ruler, whatever was being used. It did not teach me anything except that people who love you hit you. And fear. although I was taught this was a 'healthy fear' whatever that means. But being non-violent, I would never try to force anyone to walk my path. This is just how I feel, though it pains me to know that many children are being taught that hitting and love go hand in hand.
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I'm new here...
by nilfun ini just wanted to say hello and that i think it's nice to find a place where i can express myself if/when i need/want to, although i feel pretty timid about posting.
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nilfun
Wow, thanks for making me welcomed here I am not an Aussie, though I lived there for about a year and a half. Miss it lots...and I took my nickname from Neil Finn's website, being a fan and all.
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I'm new here...
by nilfun ini just wanted to say hello and that i think it's nice to find a place where i can express myself if/when i need/want to, although i feel pretty timid about posting.
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nilfun
Well, I could never be re-activated. Different people have different experiences in this religion (I guess that goes without saying) and this religion and my temperment just weren't suited for each other. I'd like to say I made some sort of courageous stand as I walked away from the J.W.s, but I didn't. I moved far, far away from everyone and everything I ever knew about eight years ago and never went to another meeting again.
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I'm new here...
by nilfun ini just wanted to say hello and that i think it's nice to find a place where i can express myself if/when i need/want to, although i feel pretty timid about posting.
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nilfun
Thanks for welcoming me here :) I wrote a little bit in my bio, sorry it's not more detailed, that was all I could think to write right now...SYN, I'm not sure what you mean by 'still assimilated'... Do you mean still involved in the K.H.?
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I'm new here...
by nilfun ini just wanted to say hello and that i think it's nice to find a place where i can express myself if/when i need/want to, although i feel pretty timid about posting.
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nilfun
I just wanted to say hello and that I think it's nice to find a place where I can express myself if/when I need/want to, although I feel pretty timid about posting.