Dear oompa,
I have appreciated your continuous comments on this site and have always looked forward to read your comments. For me you are a decent human being. I feel sad. Please don't let yourself go down.
"Nothing happens to any man which he is not formed by nature to bear"- Marcus Aurelius
at bigmac and MrFlipper and Outlaw (I LOVE your intelligent sarcasm/humour - it often lightens up very serious threads!!! Thank you, thank you and thank you again): Not wishing to hijack this thread, but I think oompa could benefit from yours and others experience. Myself? I don't know whats happening with me. My experience is almost the same as oompa's (18 years of marriage, been Bethelites, etc.) she decided to walk away with our 2-year old baby girl. It made my heart bleed.
Now I am in a new, wonderful, refreshing new relationship with a girl that can handle my "shitty-JW-past".....and now I am confronted with this: 2 weeks ago my former wife (divorce has not gone through yet) is "re-thinking" our situation and she wants me back and says she can handle and put up with my apostate thinking......I miss my little girl sooo much, and the years and years of marriage are coming back through memories.....she put me through with lots of pain because of her fanatical JW-thinking, and now I am almost considering going back to her, because of my daughter....I don't know if I love my former wife....maybe I will sorry for her, because of her pain.....but I'm in love with my new partner.....at the same time I feel egoistic for "doing this" to my ex-wife........the past days I've been struggling, not sleeping and crying a lot.....with no reason as I was enjoying life and a wonderful new partner for a while now.......this new "offer" is making my life miserable again....I don't think she can put up with my thinking because we spent almost five years fighting over this shitty cult......I think it could become a trap........
I am counting all this, because oompa might go through the same process.....I hope you will be well my friend.