dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
Ok. I know (as a fact!) that sometimes the bros at the Service Department get "nasty apostate" letters....some of them are very, very obvious (envelope, introductory words, etc.) and get thrown away at first sight....
....nevertheless if the "packaging" is right....you COULD get someone, higher up reading your thoughts (and hopefully get to the F*ck you part !!!) before it is destroyed....
....only an idea....
dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
Hey! Just got an email from one person that received my link to this post!
He is in shock! Wrote me that he felt really sorry that people have to go through this and offered me his help, whenever I need!
I love this kind of preaching....hahhahahaha......should I count my time? I will continue to send links to this post....it is very well written and expresses all the feelings that go along with this sh&%$
Thanks EntirelyPossible!
dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
Hahahahaha....Nope. My former "employer" is worser....they are a greedy bunch of delusional lying old bastards!!!!
I think INTEL are saints in comparison...
dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
EntirelyPossible: I will email you. Just for your information: some members of this board have asked me what you (maybe) will ask me, and I have some kind of "my own timetable" on how things will go in the next couple of weeks/months....some members here know my real identity and will be informed, once I am ready to pull this off.
Nevertheless, I will be more than happy to exchange a few toughts with you over gmail!
I cannot give my identity away.....
dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
Intel, you don't HAVE to lose you kid. BTW, is your name related to technology or knowing things?
Both...
...if you understand what I mean.
elderelite: "appreciate spiritual things enough.. oh the irony.... that place has prob made more apostates than any 10 web sites you could put together...."
My case. My "job" gave me some kind of "diplomatic immunity", so "sleeping in" plus "missing meetings" was welcomed and overseen. I worked at a number of Branches and saw people getting dismissed pretty much all the time. It depends on the overseers, how they like you and how good you are at "faking or lying", which means if you are only average, you CAN get kicked out for minor "offenses".....if you are a "full-fledged-trained-combat-JW-Drone" you can get away with pretty much EVERYTHING (you are an important Bethel elder? They need you for some reason? You can go and f*ck a couple of sisters....and it is "word against word", they get dismissed and you get to stay!
This was my personal experience. Second the "talks after WT Study and strange morning worship talks"... > making you feel like shit and creating that feeling of unworthiness....
.......aaaaaaaaaaahhhh, crap.....this brings back memories that I NEED TO FORGET to keep my sanity.
Bethel produces some of the very best Apostates! Confirmed.
dear member of the governing body,.
thanks to you, i did something a few nights ago that i promised i would never do again.
i lied to someone.
EntirelyPossible:
Very well written. Matter of fact I've just sent a link to this post to non-Witnesses that I know (Reverse-Witnessing, hehehehe). They already dislike the WTASS Society for the scum they are and this will only help more.....
I'm going through a incredibly difficult situation, was "raised in the truth" and can't "get rid" of them...(working on it!). I've sent this link to some new friends I have made outside the BORG, because YOUR LIFE ressembles MINE! The constant lying, I've had to build multiple personalities, invent and make stuff up.....it is sickening and it wears you off as a person.
I will dissacociate very soon, but since I was Bethelite (different Branches) I need to go out "BIG"....I really want to "use" some of the stuff I have.....they should KNOW that I LEFT!!!!
Big hug my friend. We will make it. I will loose my child in the process......but I'm not leaving without a fight!
i cant believe how amazing i now feel as opposed to how aweful my life was but 4 months ago.. after some careful consideration, i decided to be gay despite being a jw.. the moment i chose this course, my life became so positive and i noticeably felt happy again.. 3 months ago i met a lovely man who took an interest in me.
one week ago we decided it was time to become boyfriends.. well, i feel incredible.
all i can say is that this course of life based on my being true to myself, despite the fact that it contradicts what i have been brought up to believe, has made life worth living again.. despite being gay, and slowly coming out to those who matter to me, i also have come to realise how flawed this organisation is anyway.. im a keen bible student but i dont see the organisations claim to authority.. to be honest, ill be glad to get out of it and start living my life as happily as i can whilst still trying my best to serve god.. thanks to those who supported me and of course to my boyfriend 'jackal' who joined this forum in order to understand what has made up my entire upbringing!.
TimothyT.....Congrats, bro ;-) I'm not gay, but I admire your courage.....if you read some of my latest posts, you will understand why.
Anyway, I admire you and your short post shows some great advance in LIVING YOUR OWN LIFE! Wow, this really sets an example for the rest "of us" who have to continue and be hipocrites....
Thank you my friend.
Wish you and your friend the Best!!!!!!
friends,.
as i mentioned in an earlier post, the pictures of the dictators on the wall at the "court" on page 31 of the 2011-03-15 wt, contains great similarities with gb members losch & jackson.
it seems to be a hidden joke of the brooklyn graphics department.
Would like to see a picture were both get invited by the house owner....and getting nailed.....I mean by dismantling their ridiculous belief systems
(They ARE hot.....not Pioneer sisters though.....)
this is very difficult to write (forgive me for any spelling mistake, i am not a native english speaker).. i cannot tell my complete story on this board - i eventually will, once i have broken the last "link in the chain" that has kept me captive to the borg.
i can't tell my story, because.....basically i will be known.....as a more or less "famous" jw..... i have been lurking this site for many years, wrote here under another name - this eventually was found out and i had to do "damage containment".
i had to "go back" and tow the party line....all my family (extended and close) are witnesses, all my "friends" and even work & business relationships are jw.
Dear friends,
I just wanted to update you. I am doing better emotionally...(it's just that over the last weeks this has been "building up")
The pressure that my relatives (and wife) put on me is too much....some of you think that maybe I have been to "mean or direct" with my wife. Some comments were just "snippets" of long winded conversations. Believe me, over the past five years
I have tried all kinds of approachs (naturally preferably the "soft approach" like many have suggested. It's only that "you go soft" and "they hit you hard" trying to "rescue my lost soul".
My wife said the other day that she will stick to this marriage only because she needs to "rescue me", so that Jehovah doesn't loose one of his own! I told her that sometimes I have the feeling that I am married to the Watchtower Society itself and that this feels like the STASI or something. I get menaced that I will be handed over to the elders....that is why I made that "cutting comment". Out of frustration with the circular thinking!
One more point. I wrote what I wrote or came here to see different points of view, but I think that the biggest way of "moving on" is to just do WHATEVER I THINK is best! My new friends (non JW) are right: I have to stop worrying about what OTHERS think - this is what keeps me inside the Borg. So, I will go "cold turkey" on this....wasted five years trying to "convince" wife and relatives....only to get a shitstorm of "persecution" and problems (even at my workplace!)
No, I will pick whatever advice I like and do something were I USED my OWN thinking. I like the idea though of "creating distance", "become stronger" only to "come back to save my baby girl" That sounds like a suitable plan to me and fits my own feelings.
I will keep you updated and very much appreciate your thoughts and comments. Thanks. Thanks and Thanks again!
Once I am "out" I can come back here and tell some of the "Inside Stories" that might interest many of you
