Dear Philly,
I am saddened by your decision to return, but even more so by the responses you have received here. This is supposed to be a place for support, with that being said, I ask you to reconsider. Separation from the KH and all it holds is tremedously stressful, all you have known is there. Trust me when I say it is worth it. I do not smoke, drink or speak vulgarly. I do have sex because I'm married, LOL! sorry, it was funny to me. It takes an adjusting period, but you also have to be ready to let go of the KH completely, if you are not, then your best decision is to go back until you are ready. My prayers are with you in your journey to find you.
hugs,
anniegirl