;;;;;;;;After letting go of my beliefs as a JW, I felt the only alternative was to be atheist. Or maybe it is just logical to there is no God
when I am only listening to my mind and not my heart. At any rate, I really felt for a long time there is no God. Even came to
grips with the idea that this could be "as good as it gets" and accepted my mortality.
Hi dobby, I left the WTS in 1979 and have basically been an athiest all this time. Lately I've been wishing there was something more. I'm not making much progress though as I'm very skeptical and I tend to think I will just talk myself into it if I think about it too much. I listen to the non judgemental christians who aren't too pushy, but I'm very cautious and cynical. I see a rational explanation for everything - can't seem to put a spiritual spin on stuff.
I don't particularly want a Heaven or life after death - I dunno, maybe I just want a security blanket that I can wrap myself in because reality is too harsh.
;;;;;;;;;;;;;. But sometimes I just want to believe the simple idea that God is up there, and will reward us with heavenly life if we simply follow the Golden Rule.
Could it be just that simple?
No. I don't think it could be. I think it might be more useful to find an old lamp and rub it and when a jeanie pops out, make a wish. I wish for a God who cares about ordinary people. Not one like the WT portrays - I mean a really first rate, decent fellow with a heart of gold. Oh well.......... who knows maybe I've got it all wrong. It wouldn't be the first time.
Marilyn