They make you doubt your own mind and thinking, they even tell you YOUR heart is treacherous.....(never say that about themselves).....so when you are leaving and you haven't realised that this is all part of the indoctrination, it causes emitions such as concern, doubt and fewr, but the information is readily available to prove you are right in leaving and wrong in staying. Guilt seems the wrong word, I never felt I was doing anything wrong in leaving, quite the opposite... hence my slow decline in answering, doing talks and then preaching..... i felt guilty doing those activities once i knew it was all a lie.
THE RELIEF was immense the night the elders didnt answer ONE of my questions, they went from saying 'this is Jehovah using you to clean his organisation' to within an hour saying 'it is best you dont attend anymore'
I got on my motorbike knowing 25 years was done, ended, I think I always knew it would one day and here it was..... I was smiling as I rode home. The elders by their actions had just proved to me it was all a lie. A con man selling dodgy timeshares to a room full of people.....someone puts their hand up and asks seversl legitimate questions of concern and presents financial data contradicting what he had already said... hecang answers your questions and concerns with evidence because its a lie. so when he says 'shhhh you cant ask those questions!' you know its a lie! Some stay to hear the rest of the salespitch, but when you put your hand uo again and demand answers & he gets his mates to man handle you out the meeting and tells you its best you stay away..... you know they dont have the answers and you have been seperated out to stop others hearing your questions.
This says alot about elders and their own conpliance in the Watchtower game.
But Just as s man leaving such a time share or pyramid sale meeting would leave relieved he had not wasted any more time and got out.... thats how i felt, i find it odd that some feel guilt, that conveys a concern it may all be true. But I understsnd that some leave earlier than I did (fair dues to you) maybe with less proof od it being garbage so doubting themselves.
As for family still in it, I know it is a dangerous, harmfull, mind control group....so I don't feel guilt about showing them they CAN leave and why! By leaving I have seen 7 family members follow me out....it took about 6 years but its fantastic! Some remain in and I dread their stubborness may cost them a lifetime of regret.
