I'll never forget my grandparents (non jw) face as I described my newly assigned privelage, of working for free in a factory for the JW's. I was bewildered as to why they seemed so disappointed. Now it makes perfect sense and I appreciate their honesty, it reinforced the feelings of time wasted when I was weighing up leaving WT.
Leaving WT is a combination of doubts and questions and a mosaic of emotions, all these little experiences help. My grandparents saw my potential, when I didn't. I was so happy to go give my life to a factory. Even my JW pals thought I was nuts,
Ambition is a dirty word to WT, the reality is it is a healthy, human motivator. The irony is, you will never see so much ambition in the JW's than in Bethel....