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It is a very dangerous cult. Do your research, do your reading. Don’t rely on anything we say here or that they say to you in person. You only know the motives and honesty of YOU... so you have to put a lot of effort in and do your own research.
Imagine if Apple or another company banned people from reading bad reviews or anything negative about their products. Imagine if they said the reason for it was there is a risk you may believe some of it and not want their product and that’s dangerous because there product is definitely the best! That’s exactly what JWS do. Imagine if a member of the board at apple decided to leave because of ethical reasons and when he left write a book to show all the bad things going on there.... that’s what Ray Franz did, the book is called ‘Crisis of Conscience.’
The JWs are going to tell you, that you are not smart enough to safely read negative things about the JW’s. They will tell you it is risking your life.
Ask yourself when this exact thing happens..... what organisation or belief system is scared of information? What kind of institution is scared of opinions, of books?
Scientists seek out alternate opinions and views to see how valid they are in the hope of concluding what is true. JW’s are petrified of anything not written by the Watchtower.
Walk away whilst you still have a life......