Gosh, that's the "discipline" I got while growing up JW... even when I try to forget I have scars in my body that reminds me of it almost everyday. It is awful to receive that kind of violence in the home, you have no one to come to your rescue - the last time I got spanked by my father I was almost 22 ... it was the worst because since I was a grown up, it was very diminishing, it could have been the perfect opportunity to spit venon at him and fight back ...
This reminds me a few months ago, my fiance was playing with me and he said, come little girl I will give you a spanking and OMG it was like if I was a child again, like if dimensions were fighting with my present and for a split of a second I was afraid of him, and I cover my face and yelled NO, he kept on playing he didn't understand what I was going through ... flashback ...