IMHO, you are not alone and you are picking up on a very real and unnatural climate in the Kingdom Hall.
You will never get a true reading on how much of what you sense is wrong with the folks in the Kingdom Hall is you and how much is them. The environment is just too forced and unnatural.
To me, the "love" is performance based.
The more you do (according to predetermined JW standards) the more deserving you are of "love" which is really not love but a conditioned approval response.
Its complicated isnt it? Thats what high control groups do...they legislate and re direct natural emotions and actions.
I wonder if you might like volunteering with a group that cares for animals? A shelter of some sort?
When I get too weary of people and their shenanigans, I find that animals refresh my soul. They have no agenda and need what we have to offer.