OMG I am crying my freakin' eyes out and I am at school so this is no good! But OMG you touched my heart. I understand what you are going through! I still am very bitter at discovering that my religion is really a dangerous cult but I have a plan set in motion. OMG I do not know what else to say after reading this... you have said everything many of us are still feeling and have gone through in our lives.
If this was ever one of those posts that deserve to be pinned permanently at the top of the page and posted this is it! PM me!