Posts by macys
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I miss my family so much. I thought I was over it but I have breakdowns every few months thinking about my family
by macys inas most of you know i have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party.
the matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and i am 100% certain that jdub org is a cult.
but i miss my family so much.
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macys
Thank you but I feel that I need to do this now before I have children which I am planing on right after school. I am 99% sure of it. My personal integrity has not been compromised. I am acting just like the governing Body does when they read letters to their slaves that "we are financially good but please send us money and we are stopping building work because we are doing more to advance the kingdom and not because of money but again please send us all of your money as soon as possible." Fuck that. This is my own version of theocratic warfare. -
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Do most ex JW's go politically left?
by Lightgrowsbrighter ini've found it interesting that- imho- most of the politically vocal ex-jw's at this website seem to lean left.
i'm personally pretty centered- right on some issues, left on others, but overall have a pretty cynical view of all political/religious leaders.
i find it somewhat ironic that people who leave such a dogmatic group like the witnesses become so politically dogmatic.
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macys
I do not like to get involved with voicing my political stance too much especially here on a JW site but I have always been center-left since I was a young JDub just because of my sexuality and openness in general to gay marriage and celebrating alternative lifestyles but now as I watch my country and other western countries turn to a big shit bowl and forget their heritage and let Muslim invaders walk right in making their homelands unsafe for the native citizens I find myself leaning to the right. My boyfriend has alwyays been very conservative on most issues and definitely on monetary issues but he predicted that as we let in more and more Muslims into our country we will see more and more terrorist activity. It goes without saying not all Muslims are terrorists but if just 1% are then we have a major problem and losing just one American life because we want to open our doors to all of them is not acceptable. But I have read too many polls to see that the majority of Muslims want to enforce Sharia in western countries and feel sympathy for the terrorists because they are doing what Muslims are told to do in its purest form. I have a lot of family ties to Germany and Sweden and they are getting pissed off with their political leaders who are getting more and more involved in middle east politics and then at the same time welcoming more and more of the same people they are displacing. They are traitors. Instead of looking out for the interests of their own citizens first they pander to the Muslims like we owe them something and we get thanked in return by terror, violence and fear in our own homelands. No way. That is why I am leaning right this time around like my boyfriend. The left has abandoned their duty to the citizens first and are now traitors. After what happened in Paris and Cali I am more determined to vote for whoever is going to take action without being politically correct. We simply do not have time for that. Forgive the rant but my cousin's classmate was one of the injured victims in the Paris attacks so this is too close to comfort as it could have been him instead. As my aunt says all the time to me that most people will refuse to look at the danger and take action for fear of being labeled a racist or nazi but they change real fast when something happens to them personally. -
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I miss my family so much. I thought I was over it but I have breakdowns every few months thinking about my family
by macys inas most of you know i have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party.
the matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and i am 100% certain that jdub org is a cult.
but i miss my family so much.
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macys
Wow! Thank you all for your kindness and replies. I am just here to drop in after a hiatus from this site since I feel like I have so many friends here who are going through the same thing as me. I have so many positive things going on in my life now that I need to eventually move on from this cult. For now I am doing what I have to do so my parents will be able to be grandparents and see their grandchilndren.
So I have finally begun the reinstatement process. I met with thke elders in a completely new hall who do not know anything about my situation yet. I got to tell them my side of the story first before they get the letter from where my cards are still located. I was apologetic and humble and told them I am not living in sin. That of course is open to interpretation just like the bible and the WTBTS likes to mince words and go against 1 Cor 4:6.
I will basically need to go through the whole process of meetings, bible study (aka. brain washing through WT books) and other bullshit to be acceptable to Jehovah. I attendded my first meeting last month. It was hell to hear the bullshit now. The stares I get from people who already know I am Dfed is like I have the plague or something. One lady who I dare not call a sister, camme up to me and then stopped midway to say, "Oh I am sorry. I am not supposed to talk to you." I just smiled like fuck you bitch. Anyways this is really going to be hard to pull off. After my reinstatement I am going to fade away. I am also going to document everything so I will be able to build a case against this cult and take them to court. My boyfriend is uber wealthy and is going to pay for the case himself. Even if we lose it will be good that other people get to see the inner workings of this cult. That is about it for now. And if I can not get to all of your private messages right away I say thank you anyways!
I will keep you updated as my reinstatement moves along. The one elder said to me it could take up to two years before I am in "good standing" with this cult. I cringed but smiled to his face. I told him I am happy to be back home. LOL
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I miss my family so much. I thought I was over it but I have breakdowns every few months thinking about my family
by macys inas most of you know i have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party.
the matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and i am 100% certain that jdub org is a cult.
but i miss my family so much.
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macys
As most of you know I have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party. The matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and I am 100% certain that JDub org is a cult.
But I miss my family so much. I pretend to not think about them. I even say to myself I do not need them or love them anymore because they shunned me. But that is not true because I do love them. I was very close to my family and we had a good family before we converted to the JDub cult.
I am thinking, I am considering, going back just so I can be reinstated so I can have my family back. Once I am back then I will fade away, just so I can show my family how far I have come on my own. I would like to have children when I am finished with school and I can not imagine my grand kids asking why they can not see their own grandmother. I can not allow that to happen. So I am planning now to go back and get reinstated so my grand kids can know their grandparents.
Am I doing the right thing or is this the medication speaking?
Please help me. Nobody can understand me better than you guys here. I am so happy to be free of this cult yet so sad not to have a normal family life.
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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.
by macys inlast week i came home from school early not feeling well.
by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.
i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.
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macys
Thanks guys for the tips! Yeah I am miserable. My boyfriend said if he injects me with his semen that it will be an immune booster. I am thinking about it. Anyone hear of this before? -
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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.
by macys inlast week i came home from school early not feeling well.
by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.
i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.
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macys
Thanks. I an not a doctor person so unless I am dying I wont go but this one has caught me by surprise cause I have not been sick in years. Literally not since 2009. Not a flu not a cold not even a sniffle. And then wham! This! -
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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.
by macys inlast week i came home from school early not feeling well.
by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.
i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.
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macys
Last week I came home from school early not feeling well. By 5 o'clock I was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of. I thought I was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and I seemed to not get it for weeks.
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Taking bets on how long this cult will last and what will happen to it
by macys ini wanna make a poll here.
how many years do you think the jdub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?.
i say the growth stops this year and starts to decline.
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macys
I am a student on a tight budget so right now $5 is all I got!
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If its Halloween, it must be it must be saw
by suavojr inthis is the list of my favorite terror movies that i used to watch as kid and still was able to be a good little jdub and son of the cobe.
looking back, the wt made me more curious to watch these movies.
some great memories!
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macys
The Haunting
The Exorcist
The Shining
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Taking bets on how long this cult will last and what will happen to it
by macys ini wanna make a poll here.
how many years do you think the jdub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?.
i say the growth stops this year and starts to decline.
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macys
I know what you are saying and you are right about the churn but you are forgetting one big thing. You are forgetting that if this cult is supposedly being blessed by Jehovah then there should be growth. A lot of growth, especially if we are living in the last days LOL and this will help them to wake up and leave even more. Once that begins there will be no stopping it. .