Well Done Timmy for standing up to the evil controlling Botchedtower, and being yourself.
Theres no wrong in being yourself, and for them to disfellow and shun you and others, just for being who you are as a person is absolutely disgusting.
The Crotchtower and their evil Kingdumb hells and their controlling ways telling you how you should be can finally go screw themselves! Being disfellowed will be the best thing that ever happened to you!
Sorry i cant give any advice on your topic, since i was a mere "indoctrination student" (that is, until i came to my senses)
But had to say the above!
Daz