Hello Ballistic,
I just wanted to say that you are not alone. Perhaps this is the first time you can be objective, since you NOW know that the Society is flawed with discrepancies.
Healing takes time.
I was never baptized. I just kept reminding the elders, "It's such an important step that involves God + myself...." I grew up in the "truth" since I was 2 until the age of 26. Ten years have passed and I am still struggling through the grieving process, with an active JW parent.
You have a great sense of humor and I enjoy reading your posts. Never loose that. I believe that laughter can get you through the hardest times. Talking, self-help books, and medical doctors I found can be helpful.
I think anger can be positive, as it can motivate a new start in one's life. Good Luck with your progress, and don't forget there are many here who support you.
more2C