Hi, Moment.
It must be really tough being a born-in, especially 4th generation. I had a pre-JW life, so I feel very lucky that I had something to go back to. You, though, have to be a trail blazer like Daniel Boone, traipsing off into the unknown. The unknown is a scary place, but only because you have not experienced it. Even I, when I left the borg, experienced great anxiety for about two years. That was 1979, pre-internet, with no support groups.
You might need some psychological help in your journey into the great wilderness of Infinite Possibility. Once you're into it, you will love the great discoveries about yourself and the world at large that you will make every day.
Best wishes on your journey. Welcome to JWN.
Regards,
SandraC