In college, I took some Religion classes. One of our most esteemed professors said that if we wanted to find the great religious thinkers of today, we woould need to go to a mental institution. The people in the Bible who were the leaders were looked upon as weirdos, Jeremiah for example.
The Watchtower Society says most of the people who post here are "mentally diseased" because we no longer believe in them. If you want friendship and support, we have it and give generously.
If you want to become a JW, this is the wrong place. We care about you, whatever your decision, and you are welcome here. But you need to contact someone at a different site to start a Bible study and start attending meetings.
Best wishes.