Scully, that is so true, i now have friends who like me as I am. I do not tiptoe on every action or word, it really is nice to be myself.
Sally, so much of the worry about - am I doing the right thing is natural. We were taught to brainwash our own way of thinking so that we become apprehensive at anything that isnt taught by the Watchtower.
Start off by making friends locally. Isolation just makes things worse.