Greeting
I,m new here but i think this is a great webb page to let other brothers & sisters interact. I,m 23 yrs old And was raised in the truth; so I;ve never been involved in any other religion. I,m not yet baptized so i guess you would say I,m just an associate. I thought I undrstood Jehovah's Way & Purpous only to find My faith shaken and my life Spinning out of control.I lost my father last apriland 4 months later my only brother. Somethings take time to get over but this is a blow that i have not yet recovered from. When my father died I was basically treated as an outcast ;i,m the youngest of 8 so as you can imagine my life was pretty sheltered My six siters(which are allat least 20 yrs older than me), i thought would would have the wisdom and knowledge to control the situation; scince they are all baptized witnesses,but instead they turned thier back backs on my brother and myself. I was so dis-heartened the way they tried to blame me for everything. I decieded to join the Air Force, 4 months later I was called to the capt.office and informed of my brothes death. This sent me even futher down a path i was already unsure of;I knew jehovah had the power to stop all this if only it was his willbut that wa not the case and i fell into a world of funication,adultry,alcoholism and self-pitty. I now have a 9 month old son, and i see the emotions my father had for me reflecting from my ora to my son, but how can i teach my son the word of the almighty when i one who raised in the truth strayed so far and is yet to find his way back. The relationship between my mother and myself has improved vastly I guess once she realized how my sisters had wronged me and got out of her grief she saw I was a connection to what my father and brother were.After all that happened to me i still hunger for the truth.I still want to call on the name of jehovah but now i am unworthy to even speak of our lord. Now i only live to see my son in the great harvest of time;but how can i make this so