Posts by Confusedandangry

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Struggling to Live a Lie

by Addison0998 in

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it’s been very difficult, much more than i first anticipated to live a lie, (be pimo and a regular active member) i still live with my parents but i plan on moving out at the end of the year, so i really need to keep it together.

but i think people are starting to get suspicious that something is up.

i’ve stopped commenting, going on service all the time, talking at the door, and occasionally voicing something, such as a question that no one has a good answer for, that makes people think, but ahah, thinking is dangerous and wrong so that is suspicious of course.

Confusedandangry

I know it’s stupid of me, but it’s also unnatural to live like this so I’m not too hard on myself

Its actually not stupid of you. Many of us have had to live a double life because of our circumstances. However it can drive one mad if you do it for too long. Because you are right-its NOT natural. Sadly, If you raise ANY suspicion your life might get even more complicated. Like others have said-try to focus on other things during the mtg, use your phone or ipad reading other material or planning for your escape. Don't rock the boat unless you are ready to face the consequences. Good luck you can do it !

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Role Reversal: Placing 1969 Awake with JW's Manning the New Portable Literature Displays

by snapdragon4 in

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in recent weeks the jw’s here in the uk have been setting up their new portable watchtower literature displays in my local town square on a saturday morning.

as they hadn’t knocked on my door for at least five years, and consequently feeling somewhat neglected, i thought that i would pay them a visit instead.. .

the first thing i needed to do was arrange my literature.

Confusedandangry

bumping this post for newbies/lurkers. Almost 50 years since this Awake was written. They are still preaching the same thing..

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Motherly Love, that "Unbreakable Bond"

by Simon in

my father died a couple of months ago.

he'd been ill for some time and had many health scares and heart troubles over the years but always managed to keep on going.

then one time he didn't.. i'm glad i got to know him again and spend some more time with him after so many years missed because of the wts but those years will always be lost forever.

Confusedandangry

Simon, I'm sorry about both of your parents. My sincere condolences. Thank you for sharing this with us.

I guess as long as you tip your cap to their authority, they don't care if you molest children, commit crimes or any number of things that they claim to abhor.-- That is something I cant wrap my head around.

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interview with an apostate- morpheus

by _Morpheus in

when i saw simons thread and the "interview" series of threads that came from it i really enjoyed reading the life stories of those that shared.

a bump for newer people seems like a good idea and i figured i would add mine as well.

again, thanks to simon for the concept of a guided interview thread and the template.. tell us a little about yourself and your family.. hmmm... easy question, hard answer.

Confusedandangry

Thank you for sharing, I find these very interesting. I also woke up trying to defend the org. From comparisons to other cults (Scientology) and the 'apostate lies' about the ARC. The more I researched the worse it got.

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Interview With An Apostate: Pale.Emperor

by pale.emperor in

tell us a little about yourself and your family.. 33yp guy from liverpool, england.

2nd generation, born in.

baptized at 19, left age 31. divorced with a 4yo daughter.

Confusedandangry

Thank you for sharing. I would also like to return to University so I can help ex-Jw's. Not many therapists (at least not here in US) are familiar with the JW cult. They think its just another religion and fail to see how traumatizing it can really be.

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I got my first teaching job!

by paradiseseeker in

in case you haven't read me, i am a spanish pimo who is preparing himself to become an english teacher.

well, i just wanted to share with you that i've been called to work in a high school and my first week of work has been amazing!

this job is not permanent, it will end in july, but finally i got rid of many doubts about my adequacy for this job: i love it!

Confusedandangry

Congratulations ! Felicidades!

I agree with what Desirous of Change said!

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Are you a woman? Do you know one?

by dubstepped in

if you can answer yes to either question, you should consider listening to the latest episode of "shunned".

in it, brenda tells her story inside the flds cult, a story of women and what they go through.

this is happening right here in the united states.

Confusedandangry

Dub are you on Insta? I saw this post earlier on there but I haven't checked it out yet. I will have a listen on my way home from work. Keep up the good work!

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How many people have been woken up by the A.R.C??

by karter in

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i know of 1 that watched the video and never went back.. i think for some it was a the sum of the total or the "last straw" if you like.. karter..

Confusedandangry

Can I just add that back in early 2016 one random night after the meeting and elder came up to me saying he knows it must be hard being a female and if I had ever been sexually abused I had to forgive, pray & rely on Jehovah. Then he read me some scriptures from his bible. I was so stunned by his words I couldn't even respond. What do you even say to something like that? It was in the middle of the hall, anyone could have heard. This was a 70 year old man who never had a single conversation with me during my time in that KH. Talk about ODD! Turns out they told the same spiel to several other sisters in the hall. Sorry if I went off topic, just wanted to get that off my chest. I just wonder if that had anything to do with the ARC.

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How many people have been woken up by the A.R.C??

by karter in

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i know of 1 that watched the video and never went back.. i think for some it was a the sum of the total or the "last straw" if you like.. karter..

Confusedandangry

I lived in Australia from 2015-2017 and never heard of the ARC until Feb 2017 when i was visiting the U.S! But once my spouse showed me a video of it, (trying to defend the org) that was it for me. Within one month of countless research I knew I was done.

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Rejoice cos God's tent is.... Disintegrated by a cat 5 truth storm

by Normalfulla in

just had to share... a former friend of my wife's, has just left our house, unbeknown to us, her and her husband have been inactive for about a year and a half, they have pre teen boys too.

she reached out to my wife as she had heard that we were apostates etc and needed someone to talk to.. .

after her father dying she was in a bad place mentally and emotionally and reached out to her cong for support, apon receiving 0 she turned to the bible for comfort only in her raw emotional state to realize that jehovah was a murderous unfair god and then her wheels of rational reasoning started turning.. she questioned things and was outspoken about things and attracted elder attention... long story short she wanted to connect with a friendly ear and she splurged she's never going back, the bible is all bulls**t and it's a cult, despite not knowing most of ttatt we all shared experiences and watched her eyes boggle at (stuckinarut... the first euphoric high) the un scandal, beth sarim, ray franz, 607, arc.

Confusedandangry

Great post, its great to hear about people waking up - thanks to the active witnesses own selfish actions.

Wingcommander- I got teary eyed reading your comment. I had a similar experience. The so called 'worldly people' showed more love & support than any of the JW's in my parents hall.