Yes Cedars, I do know.
I lost my mother to cancer not long ago.
Watching her suffer and being unable to do anything about it made me feel worse than useless.
For all my strength and determination I was powerless against it.
I know that I will carry it for the rest of my life and in some ways I am pleased to do so as I will never forget.
I think that being brainwashed into believing I would never see my parents grow old and die made it harder to accept. The realization that I had been lied to is a bitter pill to swallow I'm afraid.
A beginning has an end of course.