I distinctly remember looking around the beautiful area I live in thinking "this will be ours soon "
A stupid naive assumption of an indoctrinated 8 yr old
I do remember the entitlement felt as though u had the truth , u were someone special who was in "the know" of the real truth and therefore in line for the rewards promised , luckily this didn't go to my head so to speak and I still lived as a fairly normal kid ,kinda just living my life with that stuff in the back of my mind but it was always there ..
Very nervous and timid to approach my high school teacher to giver her the school brochure as I just wanted to blend in and dreaded doing it but was under duress from my parents ,
Worst thing ever was 1 sat morning for F.S the territory I dreaded most was assigned to my family and a girl I fancied lived there , we actually called on her house and omg I was so shamed then she followed us up the road with her friends on their bikes poking fun ... I was mortified as my dad could see this and as we were driving off beeped his loud horn and waved out the window ,
Turns out the girl liked me too but that's not the way to be introduced , forever shamed out ...