Someone asked me recently when did I start to have doubts as an elder about what I was teaching from the platform.
I have given it a lot of thought and I can say that it was when I was delivering a Public Talk about the book of Hebrews. I had delivered the outline before and parroted off what was on the page in front of me many times before.
However on this occasion I was reading Hebrews 11:10 from the platform of a neighbouring KH to my own, a verse which says that Abraham was awaiting the city having real foundations - at which point the outline said something along the lines of he was looking forward to life on a paradise earth under God's heavenly kingdom - when my brain said to me "Hold on, that's not what the verse says, read it again". So I paused and read it again.
I looked at the audience and said to them let's look at the cross-reference for this verse which is Hebrews 12:22 and I read that verse. After which I remember saying "and this is how the outline puts it.... " and I read from the outline verbatim.
Abraham was NOT looking forward to an earthly kingdom hope. It was as clear as a flash of brilliant lightning to me in that moment. However I went on with the printed material and finished the PT getting my usual applause at the end.
That was definitely the starting point of my questioning things that the organisation wanted me to tell people in public talks that made little sense to me from a well researched Bible study.
It didn't take me too long to latch on to John 6:53-59 and begin to understand that everything pointed to a heavenly hope, the very same one that Abraham was looking forward to (through his many one-to-one conversations with Jehovah and/or Jehovah's angels) as recorded in Hebrews.
I believe that PT was my 'road to Damascus moment' when I stood up there realising that I was 'blind' to the real truth. I can still relive the feelings I experienced then as I write about it now.
Since becoming POMO I have come a very long distance both in time and belief. I recently bumped into a person who used to go to JW meetings but no longer does, and John said that my PT in his hall made him start to question. He added that he's been disfellowshipped now because of his return to smoking but that he's pleased that myself and others are still talking to him and treating him as normal (his words) not as an outcast.
I said that anyone treating others as outcasts was added proof that they were in a cult not a Christian church because Jesus our Lord had no issues with eating and fellowshipping with anyone be it Pharisees, prostitutes, tax collectors or "sinners". Witnesses set themselves up as "holier than thou" pre-judgers. A far cry from Jesus's example.
I still use Jehovah's name when I privately talk to God, I have a deep personal faith in Jesus. But, Praise the Lord, I am not one of those Jehovah's Witnesses anymore. And I am awaiting the city having REAL foundations, whose architect and builder is God.
Additionally, I want to wish all of you POMO and PIMO friends a very Happy New Year 2024.