I've had a mountain of abuse to overcome. From my family, to individual Jws, to the org. The toll it took on me was severe, I only remember my life in bits and pieces. Some periods of times i have no remembrance of at all. i remember once just sort of waking up in my parents home and not knowing who they were. I was in my twenties at that time. This went on until i was in late 30's and then all systems broke down. I was very ill, and required a great deal of help. I got none from the elders or any jws. If they could have spit on me , they would have. I got psychiatric help and had a wonderful psychologist. it took him 2 years to break through the jw mindset. But finally i listened to him . I finally grew to trust him.. this was hard, b/c i had learned to trust no one, not even myself. I'm not going to tell u that everythihg went great and moved forward. it wanned and waxed. today, i am still in therapy, but i feel i have been able to reslove most of the abuse issues.. Sure they still hurt, and i have scars, but i am still here, and i survived. But i have been left with low sef estem and the stress has taken a toll physically on me. i am not as healthy as i used to be, due to a lot of stress induced illnesses.I was once a very outgoing person and made friends easily. Now i am fearful of people and am always watching me back.The person i used to be would open their home to a stranger. Now u would need references. But i would not be alive today were it not for my doctors. Just as heart surgery can save your life and insulin can help u if u are diabetic, therapy and medicine has helped me regain some of my life. Right now, i am trying to learn to have fun and be happy. I have spent so many years being sad and feeling i was a bad person. For this and may other things, i will not forgive jws. They could have helped and did not. They saw me lying on the roadside,nearly dead, and went over to the other side.
Deciding to seek psychiatic help is the same as seeking help for anything else. if u were a diabetic, i doubt we would have threads entitled 'I am diabetic, should i go to doc, take insulin?" It will be so nice to get out of the dark ages.
I posted this on anoter thread, but applies here too.