Posts by onthefence

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Wow this board is busy

by onthefence in

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i guess that might say something in and of itself.. thanks to everybody who replied to my last post i just got through reading the responses.

i have to say i didn't clarify my last post very well as i was pretty emotional at the time.

i would definately fade out of the congo slowly if i could but the thing is i'm still living at home so it would be very hard to do.

onthefence

I guess that might say something in and of itself.

Thanks to everybody who replied to my last post I just got through reading the responses. I have to say I didn't clarify my last post very well as I was pretty emotional at the time. I would definately fade out of the congo slowly if I could but the thing is I'm still living at home so it would be very hard to do. I'm 21 and I lived on my own for awhile with a so-called jw friend of mine. We got drunk and stoned every weekend, but when I would talk to him about any of this it was like he would get offended! I thought that was so crazy. Anyway, I moved back in with my parents to go to college (I never bought into that whole anti-education argument) and I am now a senior and have about a year and a half left.

About the girl (isnt it always hehe), she isnt actually my gf, we have only been writing and calling each other the last 3 months or so. After I had that discussion with her the other night she said "Well I cant be mad at you over something you dont believe in". I couldnt believe she said that! She seems to be very open minded but its like someone said (cant remember who) she has a family and getting involved with her now would mean fighting at least 2 battles with mine and her family. I dont know man, I guess I'm going to try to move out and support myself through my last year of school and it will be easier that way to kindof slack off on meeting attendance. Well I'll figure out something I suppose........it might be awhile before I make it back here, but again thanks for understanding.

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What to do...

by onthefence in

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friends

well im going to be unpopular here.

i am still in jw orginization, in fact i just went to a meeting tonight and even had the privlege of caring microphones.

i'm being set up as an example in the congregation...and guess what else...i dont believe anything!!

onthefence

Well Im going to be unpopular here. I am still in JW orginization, in fact I just went to a meeting tonight and even had the privlege of caring microphones. I'm being set up as an example in the congregation...and guess what else...I dont believe anything!! Its not that I am in direct opposition to "WT dogma" (as it is apparently reffered to on this board) I just dont know. I can (and do) question everything, how can you be sure about anything to the point of such dogmatic behavior, if god really wants us to live a certain way why isnt it more obvious what that way is, why did god used to be so open and talk to his followers in bible times but now we cant even get a miracle, and back to the more fundamental how does putting a god in the role of creator explain anything? Dont you still have to accept the fact that something (like order life love etc.) came from nothing!???...I dont know what I want from everyone out there in cyberspace, I guess just some support. This is so horrible if I leave the truth its going to destroy my parents and my sister I know wont talk to me. Not only that but I have a girl who likes me who is kinda half in half out of the orginization. I told her on the phone last night about how I cant keep myself from questioning things and I could tell she was very upset. WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!? I can't take this its either go along with something that makes me feel like a hypocrite and a liar or leave it and have my family and a good majority of my friends turn their back on me!!