Sorry.....Oh hell.......No I'm not........for being so crude. Had nothing to do with where courage might originate from, an inability to sympathize with your situation, nor whether I think I'm better than the WT.........a veiled accusation I have to say my JW wife used to use on me a lot. So, I hope you understand, that it's not unexpected that I figured I'd hear it from you if you were pushed a little bit.
A middle school coach once told me that "excuses are tools men use to build monuments of nothingness".
So when I see a person who presents himself as a grown man, 27 years old, college educated, financially capable of supporting himself, and even for a just awakened JW still at home "sucking on the tit"........
............whew......I guess it's just been awhile for me.........the Strength of the WT programming is of legendary stature...........
You'll find that you're understood by me and others here a lot more than you might think. What you're going through is not unheard of, it's the same ole dance tune repeated ad nauseum here by relative newbies such as yourself.
It's the same song.......it's only the dancers that change.
It's expected that you might take some of the harsh tones here personally, thinking its just another group expecting to be answered to and ready to push you around, but believe me when I say, in the near future, you'll be kicking yourself in the head and asking yourself why did it take you so long to make some of the very decisions you're making right now, and why didn't someone give you this kick in the rear end you're expecting from the WT sooner.