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Color test Quiz

by JH in

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take the test

my results below .

your existing situationhaving difficulty making progress and unwilling to put forth further effort.

Working to improve her image in the eyes of others in order to obtain their compliance and agreement with her needs and wishes. Agreed. I need and wish for a p/t job and also that my family be more responsive to my post-chemo needs.

Your Stress Sources

The existing situation is disagreeable. Recent divorce, building a new home, breast cancer...Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Bald, scarred and weak is not the time to "surrender and to merge with another" IMNSHO Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others. Too true. Spent too many years being told I wasn't good enough.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment. Compromise is all I did during 26 years of marriage! Everytime I tried to be "real" I was shot down.

Distressed by the obstacles with which she is faced and is no mood for any form of activity or for further demands on her. Needs peace and quiet, and the avoidance of anything which might distress her further. This is dead on! I haven't the energy to cope with any more stress. Even little things upset me all out of proportion to what they would if I were well.

Your Desired Objective

Needs a change in her circumstances or in her relationships which will permit relief from stress. Seeking a solution which will open up new and better possibilities and allow hopes to be fulfilled. I need to beat the cancer. I also need NOT to be living in the same house as my ex-. I am building a new home which will remedy the second situation. I have every intention that that home will be one filled with JOY!

Your Actual Problem

Feels insufficiently valued in her existing situation, and is seeking different conditions in which she will have greater opportunity of demonstrating her worth. I am stuck in the situation due to financial concerns, and when I move I will handle money differently, and I will also be able to be truly ME.

Your Actual Problem #2

The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities. Well, I am an idealist, and I'm still not sure what I want to be when I grow up, but I'm having fun going to college and hoping to make a difference in the lives of the younger generation through teaching modern language. Meanwhile, I am engaged in some practices that others would call illusory or meaningless: Reiki treatments and energy healers, psychic consultations, and personal Tarot cards. The healings are working, so for me they have great meaning. My psychic sees good things ahead, so that helps my battle with the cancer on a mental leve. The Tarot is something I'm drawn to, but I've only used them for me and my family thus far. With uncanny results. And I DO wonder if I'll ever get to be a high school teacher and influence cultural awareness, which I feel is crucial to world peace. So call me a fool, I'm okay with that.

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Outnfree, I hope you get well soon.

by Robdar in

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please join me in sending good thoughts, positive vibes and/or prayers tonight starting at 8:00 central (9:00 eastern, 7:00 mountain, 6:00 pacific) to brenda ryan (outnfree's real name) in the detroit, mi metro area.

let's visualize her cancer fading away while the chemo does its job without making her feel ill. .

i will be out most of the day but will be here in time for the vigil this evening.

outnfree

Thanks again, Robyn! (and Robyn's parents!)

How my week has been: Very stressful. Am having problems with my ex- and his interaction with our son, and having problems with our son myself. Number 1 daughter is having health problems of her own -- she's 21 and moved back home to be with me during chemo treatments. (Lena is fine, thank you.)

As far as physically, I have been quie fatigued. My blood counts last week were down, but had climbed up a teeny bit by this past Tuesday, so I wasn't given a fourth neupogen shot. However, they were down again to about last weeks levels yesterday. The levels were not low enough to preclude my having my scheduled treatment, but I am realizing that the Adriamycin is much more intense than the Taxotere. BUT, I am now 6/12 of the way through the BIG chemo drug treatments, although I will have a full year of Herceptin beginning from late December.

Thanks to Kate (and Craig) for the LiveStrong package which I got in the mail this week. The scarf I had done Relay for Life over the weekend, and then your package came a day or two later. It was nice to know you suceeded in your plans to run the 5K! As October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month, I bought myself some pink ribbon socks yesterday. Now I feel like quite the Cancer philanthropist -- American Cancer Society, LiveStrong Foundation, Susan B. Komen Foundation! And thanks to Ray for the lovely card!

I had to cram in a Reiki treatment on the eve of Thursday's chemo, but it was sooooooo nice! I was reading how Ian opted for a healer on Tuesday, and that he actually vomited actually. It's amazing what one sometimes feels. I've cried several times, felt things sort of 'knitting together', and had smells come to me. On Wednesday night, I felt a hand on my shoulder and then sort of zinging to my port area. I had forgotten to tell my Reiki practicioner that my port had been bothering me. Her hands were on my knees, feet and other arm when I was feeling this. Also, after her hands left my stomach area, I felt energy continuing to work on my stomach. It was a rumbling kind of thing. So you never know. (Thanks to Brenda for working on me Wednesday AND Thursday nights!) Wednesday night I felt quite at peace on my return home.

Today, I am a bit queasy. I was told I could take a small steroid dose along with the Emend, but the after effects of that have only lasted about 4 hours. So I know the nausea will be a problem again, as it was the last time.

Meanwhile, I have to head off to school. I have class in about 40 mins.

Thanks and blessings and love to all who continue to show me support and myriad kindnesses!

Brenda

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My Scan Results

by Dansk in

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as many of you will know, yesterday i received my scan results from the haematologist.

when i entered his office he was beaming and so i thought the news would be good.

the chemotherapy has shrunk the cancerous lymph nodes in my stomach substantially!!

outnfree

YAY for shrunken lymph nodes! We are all so thrilled for you & your family, Ian!

I had though you were on the same 3 week schedule as myself, but I guess you were going high dose every 2 weeks if your fourth and last treatment is next week?

So you will have some time off before the prep for the stem cell transplant. I hope the rest period is restorative and helps put you in the perfect body-mind-spirit sync to undergo the pre-transplant chemo rounds.

Much love,

Brenda

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Accidental kerb fall led to death - No Blood! (Please pass a cigarette)

by Elsewhere in

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why does this not supprise me?.

http://iccheshireonline.icnetwork.co.uk/0100news/0100regionalnews/tm_objectid=16242717&method=full&siteid=50020&headline=accidental-kerb-fall-led-to-death--name_page.html.

accidental kerb fall led to death .

outnfree

Me, too! I thought the double hiip fractures from a simple fall to be bizarre!

Now this part:

During psychiatric assessment he was behaving abnormally, shifting in bed, reaching into the air and mumbling to himself. Soon after he had a heart attack.

'Picking the air' and mumbling to himself (or others he might be seeing) could be seen as abnormal behavior, but, since he had a heart attack soon thereafter, might also be seen as part of the dying process.

www.crossingthecreek.com

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Name responsibilities that sisters could have had at the hall

by JH in

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name responsibilities that sisters could have had at the hall, that doesn't go against bible principles?.

why couldn't they have passed the microphone?

outnfree

By Bible principles, I take it you mean that women aren't to be "teachers" in the congregation? (Because otherwise I am of the "anything he can do, she can do better [or at least as well]" class.)

If so, perhaps add Literature servant, Accounts servant, greeting people as they come into the KH, to passing the microphone. Oh! Taking charge of scheduling the CO/DO's meals and Bible studies/RVs for those "special weeks of activity," and ordering/handing out a sufficient number of parking stickers for the conventions, too.

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Do you think 13 is too young to...

by alreadygone in

my daughter is going to a school dance on friday.

she is extremely excited because a boy she likes asked her to go to the dance.

she is in 8th grade.

outnfree

Don't sweat it, alreadygone. If you're not chaperoning, who is? Teachers? Any parents you and your child know?

My children, who went to parochial school, went to school dances beginning in grade 7, which would be around 13 years old. I was a Witness mom and their dad is Catholic. They could only attend on condition that I would be one of the chaperones. I, too, had a camera handy, so I could cruise the parish hall from time to time under pretence (sp?) of snapping photos of my kids and their friends (which I did -- but the camera was a good prop for snooping as well). The only dance I did NOT chaperone was the final Graduation Dance. By then, both they and I had confidence they would behave appropriately while having a Last Blast with their grammar school friends.

outnfree

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WHO is TED JARAcZ

by What_is_ur_point in

what is the proof behind his child molestation accusation.

is he not part of the gov body?

?

outnfree

The woman who accused him has since died. She may have had proof but att his point we will never know unless there are other victims who might come forward

Yes, I sat next to that woman at the Brooklyn March luncheon, and she said at that time that there were two other children --one male, one female -- who were molested along with her and that she had pleaded with them to come forward to no avail. She struck me as genuine, but I am not a trained professional. I do, however, think that police departments are aware of and have investigated SRA and that it is a real phenomenon.

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WHO is TED JARAcZ

by What_is_ur_point in

what is the proof behind his child molestation accusation.

is he not part of the gov body?

?

outnfree

Yes, he is a member of the Governing Body. A hard-liner who has, indeed, been accused of the sexual molestation of children. He's been accused of Satanic Ritual Abuse of children, I do believe.

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