Positive impact - 10
Negative impact - 3 (the preceeding are ratings from my time here in 2003 and 2004)
I no longer live in the area where I was disfellowshipped. And JWs don't come to our door. They've only come maybe 2 times in 9 years. But when I was around them before, I would get very upset at how they'd just turn their backs on me.
Bible as source of Divine Inspiration - 1 - maybe parts of it are, but most is bunk
My opinion on religious matters is not described accurately by the choices. I have always and will always believe in a Creator. After my JW experience, I refused to talk to the creator, because he was Jehovah and I didn't much like Jehovah and never did.
Now I'm starting again to talk to my creator and it feels wonderful. Finally - a creator who loves me. I was helped by Neal Donald Walsch's books, but now believe with all my heart that we must find our own way to have a relationship with God and not just take anyone else's word for ANYTHING. I love the God I know now. And he is real to me. I really kind of hated Jehovah, who was a complete ass at times.
Neale Donald Walsch has written things that I've always believe in my heart. Always. But we must not take Neale's word for anything, nor should we accept anyone else's. We are free to have our own conversations with our God. And I do - when I remember. Easier to do in the summer when I'd go on long walks. I'd talk to God the entire time.
My greatest personal fear is not a religious one. It's that my book won't be read by anyone. Also that I'll never be in a passionate relationship again. I'm married to a great guy but he is no longer interested in sex. That really hurts as I am younger than he by a lot. Yeah it's all good when he's 55 and you're 45 but then........ Says he can't anymore which may be true and he cannot go on any medication for it. Oh, well. I have a nice time in my mind, though. I am very passionate by nature and I've never really had any outlet for it except once.....unfortunately, it was not to be (I was married at the time). See below.......
My greatest joy are my grandchildren who love me without condition. Also being near the ocean or on the bay, sailing. Anything to do with water and nature.
I would go back to 1980. There was this man, you see.......I adored him. I still do. I always will. I'd love to be with him one more time. No, actually, I really just want to be around him. We were perfect together. One cold December night, oh god, it was magical. And I looked and felt beautiful for the first and only time in my life. Other than that, no, I'm living my life as best I can and try to find joy in every day things with a little help from my green and white friend, fluoxetine.
Thanks, great survey!