" It's just so weird, sometimes, to see how bizarre our thoughts and behaviors are in hindsight."
It certainly is ! as I look back at the person I was as a believing J.W.
Just the other day I did this, and it kind of shocked me that I DID actually believe a lot of the nonsense, never all of it, but it was like looking at someone else, a stranger, and a weird deluded Believer.