Formerbrother, a few years ago I found myself at the stage you are at. It's been a long slow process and what I've discovered is that there are no clear cut answers to anything. The more questions you ask, the more questions there are. One of the things I dislike most of all about JWs (and my family are still in, and I occasionally still go) is the dogmatism. The belief that they have ALL the answers and no-one else does. I'm still a believer in God and Christ but certainly have no faith in what men teach. Especially when it conflicts with Christ's teachings... and if you look closely, what the WT teaches is way off what Christ taught. Keep asking questions, don't fob them off because they don't fit, open your mind to new ideas and new ways of looking at things. It may make you feel as if the rug has been pulled from under you and that there are no foundations anymore and you feel a little lost but this is simply because we have been duped into putting our trust in men. Trust your own instincts, follow your heart and you will soon discover your own way, whether you stay a believer or not... it has to be what you want and not what someone else has told you to believe. It's a process and may take a long long time, but enjoy finding out!