Posts by Godsendconspirator

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I think I've finally been disfellowshipped

by Godsendconspirator in

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it wasn't my preferred method of leaving but at least i'm as far as i can be from this cult.

over 2 years ago i've tried to fade out but i guess i did it too drastically.

i live in nyc so the entire territory is walkable and everybody in the congregation live pretty close by.

Godsendconspirator

I don't regret smoking because at the very least, it was something I chose to do. Newyork44M, I live in the bronx underneath the 1 train.

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I think I've finally been disfellowshipped

by Godsendconspirator in

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it wasn't my preferred method of leaving but at least i'm as far as i can be from this cult.

over 2 years ago i've tried to fade out but i guess i did it too drastically.

i live in nyc so the entire territory is walkable and everybody in the congregation live pretty close by.

Godsendconspirator

Just kidding, I started smoking when I started doubting the organization in order to try new things that I normally wouldn't. Now it's just a habit.

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I think I've finally been disfellowshipped

by Godsendconspirator in

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it wasn't my preferred method of leaving but at least i'm as far as i can be from this cult.

over 2 years ago i've tried to fade out but i guess i did it too drastically.

i live in nyc so the entire territory is walkable and everybody in the congregation live pretty close by.

It wasn't my preferred method of leaving but at least I'm as far as I can be from this cult. Over 2 years ago I've tried to fade out but I guess I did it too drastically. I live in NYC so the entire territory is walkable and everybody in the congregation live pretty close by. I wanted to keep ties with the people in the congregation but so far I've seen how much of their love is conditional and it annoyed/anger me so much I'm glad I don't talk to them anymore. Luckily I don't have any family in this religion. Every time I walk down the streets I see one of the brothers or sisters and I get interrupted when I eat in a diner, take the train or come home from work.

About a month ago, an elder and the CO came to my door (uninvited of course). The CO showed me a verse in the bible showing reasons why one might leave the congregation and asked me if I saw any one of those reasons in me. I said "I don't see myself in any of these examples", which I guess surprised them because they weren't able to respond. I assume they thought of the conversation going a different way.

Since then, nobody has stopped me in the streets. They pretend I'm not there and it feels so good! I can take walks around my neighborhood again peacefully. The other day I was smoking a cigarette and walking home and I passed by a sister but she said nothing. She just looked down and kept walking.

I'n so relieved! Now it's like I was never in this cult! I always did hate it whenever somebody said "Hey we missed you.". I would respond "You have my number. Let's hang out." Never got a call and now hopefully never will

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JW.ORG logo tattoos

by LogCon in

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Damn, that's almost like branding. I remember I legitmately talked to one of the brothers about getting a tattoo because there was no evidence I could find in the bible that says I couldn't. There's one scripture in the old testament but you know, according to the NT, the law was done away with. The brother tried to discourage me by saying it's "frowned upon", to which I replied, "So I can get one. Thanks!" I got the logo of favorite band on my back. I never showed anyone in the congregation though.

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New online JW TV channel released at the AGM

by kneehighmiah in

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The Watchtower has become full on email spam but in real life. I live in NYC so I get extremely annoyed when I see their stands in front of the train I take every morning to work, then in the subway when I transferring, in my neighborhood, at the new mall they just opened up by me and now on tv? I can't believe idiots fall for this when the organization has come to this.

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JW's and depression

by FeelingFree in

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i was wondering how many of you suffered badly with depression when you were in "the truth" and if you feel your depression was related to being part of the organisation?

are you better now you have left or still have issue's?

whatever your experience's i would be very intrested to know (if you feel you can talk about it.).

Godsendconspirator

I wasn't born in. I started studying at age 17 by myself, attended all the meetings and got baptized at 18. But I did have depression and soon after I started studying, I had a friend save me from ending it all. I never put the two occurences together, until after I found myself questioning. These meetings had me feeling maniplulated and oppressed but we was tricked by always being told that that we were "happy people" so I always questioned why I was so depressed. I assumed it was satan's world. Then after I left, I had to do a lot of work but I think nowadays, I feel much better about my life. I can't wait to go to work and have my career ahead of me to build up as opposed to being told that everything around me is futile.

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" Do not ask permission, just play the video--" service meeting instructions.

by prologos in

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this statement startled me out of the pleasant mental absence during this week's "service" meeting.. pushing the org.

explanation: "the listener has time to interrupt, if they want--" .

together with an incredible boring "study" of an hand held device, or it's stored content, i will be a totally new crop of orgies at the halls,.

Godsendconspirator

When I first started going out in service, one of the elders would tell me not to call the household if they're going back to a return visit; "It gives them time to make up an excuse for us to not go"

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Governing Body Signing the New Bibles?

by What Now? in

my husband said that this was mentioned in a video he watched?

i can't seem to find anything.

can anyone confirm this?

Godsendconspirator

It's funny when I was in, you were never allowed to brag about how humble you were. Yet the watchtower rags will praise the governing body and the rank and files think that so much attention is given to them because the fault lies in the rank and files themselves. GB signing autographs is so ass backwards, I wonder how anybody doesn't think about it.

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JW Psychology: Feeling Happy, Content and Secured Inside. But Outside?

by ProfCNJ in

i am comparing what an average jw feels (who knows nothing about ttatt) to another jw who knows the ttatt.

let's label the first jw as jw-a and the other jw-b.

please feel free to share your thoughts.. it's normal for positive emotions to rise (e.g.